Thoughts

Today very moody. Not cause of anyone but cause I really felt very lonely.

When I saw all my friends have their partner, I am still single. I suddenly suspect I dot have anything that will attract a guy to fall from me.

Cos of this, I almost made one of my friend angry. I even thought if it will be great if I have match-making now....

I know it is foolish. But after he got married, my heart sanked and since then no one will be able to be attracted by me. I was foolish to let him go. But will wish him happiness if that is what he wants.

I started to ask myself, am I really that bad? Why guys only look at appearance? Can they look at my heart? I wont say I am really kind hearted. All I wish for is someone there to love me, dotes me and also care for me. Is that too much to ask for?

All of them say I am pretty, I am cute, I am attractive. I dot know whether to believe them or take it as a joke. Most of my ex love me cos I have big b----. I dot wan that but no choice, at that point of time I love them.

The more I love them, the more they will make use of me. Time and again hurt me. Time and again tricked my money. I am not rich but when i fell for him, I believe whatever he said to me. Even if I knew it was a lie, I also will choose to believe him. All cos I really dot wish to lose him. But what did I got in the end?

I got back only hurt hurt hurt. How long must I wait for the true love? Or is there really true love for me? Will there be a guy out there to fall in love with me?

I really wish to believe there is. But I am really tired of waiting. I really afraid I might not able to meet him. Dear God, can I know how long you wan me to wait? Where is he? Can guide him to me? Please?

I really hate to be all alone. Please help me....

27 December 2007-DMA3/07 1st Class Gathering

Today is our first organized class gathering. Though only nine of us, but was a fun filled day. The person presents were, 2 Crystal(s), Aileen, CK, WY, Steven, May and Chloe also me... haha...

We meet at City Hall outside Guardian. When all reached, we proceed to Marina Square to Yuki Yaki... Special thanks to Steven for helping us to cook all the food on the bbq pan... He really like a cook... At there we joked, we chit chat and made lots of noise...

We stayed there till 9plus then left... But during these hours, we really had lots of fun... One of them suggest, we should have a tour to Langkawi... I think it was not a bad idea. But dot know how many will be participating. Hope almost all can join us for this planned trip.

So the rest of the classmates who is not present today, shall see you all on 7th January 2008. Thanks to those who were present today. I really enjoyed a lot. I had never laughed so much before.. Thanks for all the things you guys had done. Cheers for our friendship. Also hope that all will get good grades and hope all scored A's if not a B's when we received our ES and QS results after 28 February 2008... :P

24 December 2007-Eve Of Xmas

Today is eve of Xmas. I reached office super early than usual. My motive is to create suprises for my three darlings colleague cum friends and also to my lovely manager.

As planned, I reached before they does. I placed the presents on their desk and wait and see their suprised expression. I was so happy that I did made their day. I got for them each a four leafs blessing handphone strip with their star sign. They super touched wor...

But someone gave me suprised too. Jennifer came to our desks and gave us each a special gift. I had a cute pouch. It was the head of the turtle... I love it very much.

My lovely manager gave me a cat pouch which I love it too... I cherish it till I did not wish to take it out of the plastic cover unless I want to take money out for payment. Cos I worried it will get dirty...

Than after half day work cum suprises, I walked home with Huihui. After that I went to Tampines to create another suprise for my beloved sister, Nurlinda. I gave her a parker pen and also a four leaf handphone strip with her star sign... Though she did not opened it on the spot. The next morning she sms and thank me for my blessing and my hardwork in getting the presents.

Not only I gave her suprises, I also gave Yvonne and Rebecca suprises. I do hope they love my present. Though it was last minute but what matters is the thought that count. I am really happy today for being Miss Santa... :P

Hope every year, I will be like today so happy. But I have yet received present from my beloved sister wor as she kept not able to read my mind... haha... I was naughty by not telling her I will drop by the next day. Anyway, may all my friends be blessed and may all their wishes comes true. Cheers for friendship and sistership. I love you all very much.... :P

First Intimate Contact(Brought To You By ZCQ)

22 December 2007
Today will be unforgetable night for me and the audiences. It was the last night that Chong Qing Kor acted alone at Jubilee Hall at Raffles Hotel Level 3. Although not full house, but I can proudly say 98% seats were taken.

Tonight the audience included, Aiyoyo Teacher-Chen Liping Jie and also Lin Xiangping Jie. The whole show began once CQ kor sat at the staircase. He was telling how it all started for his internet msn.

He was a very timid guy who rely greatly on his room-mate, Ah Tai, for advises. As Ah Tai had more experience than he had. So whenever he had problems, he will asked Ah Tai. Ah Tai called him Pi Zi Cai(Bad Guy Cai). But he was not bad.
He started his blog using all chinese words. His first blog was started using a very funny poem. This poem attracts a lady with the nick Qing Wu Fei Yang.
When he told Ah Tai, Ah Tai guessed, either this lady have long hair or she doesn't like to wear skirt.

One night at 3:15am, Pi Zi Cai could not sleep, hence he decided to log on his msn. There he met Qing Wu Fei Yang and started their first msn conversation.
It lasted for few weeks and finally one day, Qing Wu Fei Yang date Pi Zi Cai for first meeting. Without hesitation, Pi Zi Cai agreed.

They met at Serene Centre MacDonald and started dating after that. But one day after having a movie, Qing Wu Fei Yang told Pi Zi Cai not to log on msn at 3:15am but on msn only at 12pm. They both did not kept this promise, they changed nick and could not find each other.

As planned, Pi Zi Cai on his msn and found one email from Qing Wu Fei Yang. It was the last email that Qing Wu Fei Yang left for him as she was already in the plane toward Taipei. She was forced to go back home for treating her illness. She also left her blogs for Pi Zi Cai to read. When Pi Zi Cai finished reading the blogs, he cried. He then flew to Taipei to look for Qing Wu Fei Yang. But not long later, Qing Wu Fei Yang died one day at 3:15am. She left a poem for Pi Zi Cai which reads something like below:

"Ru Guo Wo Neng Duo Huo Yi Tian, Wo Jiu Neng He Ni Zai Yi Qi,
Ke Shi Wo You Huo Duo Yi Tian Ma, Mei You,
Shuo Yi Wo Zou Le.
Ru Guo Wo Neng Bian Cheng Hu Die, Wo Jiu Ke Yi Fei Xia Lai Kan Ni.
Ke Shi Wo Bian Cheng Hu Die Le Ma? Mei You.
Shuo Yi Wo Bu Neng Lai Kan Ni
Ru Guo Ba Yu Gang De Shui Quan Dou Dao Chu Lai Jiao Xi Wo Ai Ni De Huo Miao, Yu Gang De Shui Neng Dao Chu Lai Ma?
Neng, Shuo Yi Wo Geng Ai Ni."

The end.... So sad right???? They are meant to be together but in the end, Qing Wu Fei Yang couldnt win the battle with Hong Bai Lang Chang Zhen, so she lost and left the world to Paradise. Sob sob... We all cried when it came to an end this way.

It was then I realised, if I am Qing Wu Fei Yang, I rather not let him know what I had been through and will never let him watch me die. If that day ever come, I will leave him quietly. But before I leave him, I will make him hate me first so that he will never thought of looking for me. Even if one day someone went to tell him, the pain will not be so severe. This is what I thought. But when it really comes, we will never know what we will really do. So keep our fingers cross and hope that this day will never come.

I LOST MY VOICE-19/12/07

Today was a terrible day in my life... When I woke up in the morning, I discovered, I am losing my voice. It became worst as time goes by...

The whole day, I wasn't talking much. All of them including my manager was not used to me being so quiet.
When I reached office, I told her I can't conduct lesson today. I was supposed to teach two colleagues on data entry for the last two plans which my colleague and I had choosen. But no matter how I tried, I still can't speak out loud. So sad...

So she, my pretty manager, had no choice but to take over me and teach them. Haiz.... Little did I knew that the lesson will end very late.

I made the wrong choice for troubling my manager... Well, if not for the company target set, we wont be struggling to hit that target....

Just hope I will recover real soon and hope I can get back my voice.

Today I had my lesson 2 for Financial Accounting 1. The lecturer, Gerard, was super funny. He used all kinds of language to make us understand his lesson. He also made a lot of jokes out of it to make us laugh....

He likes to tease us and trying to make us feel that accounting is not a difficult subject.

Indeed, it was my passion and love in accounting that made my learning as smooth as silk.... His lesson was fun...

When he asked me questions, I cant reply him as I cant speak out... Thanks to my class rep and also my best partner, she helped me to translate to Gerard. He was so shocked that he showed us he was amazed that I lost my voice...

But cant help laughing... He is a comedian..... I can see his hardworks paids off... Today he even used majong style to get us understand the process... But as he was not chinese, so his pronounciation was super funny...

He likes to say people as REN, the Business, this as ZHE GE, here and there as ZHE BIAN, NA BIAN... wahahaha.. See he so funny rite??? His drawings also very funny... When he drew lightning, one of my classmate thought it was other things... We laugh like made...

When he wanna call us to answer his questions, he will call, PENG YOU... haha.... He wanna us to remember how we get to credit the account or debit the account instead of remembering it is debit or credit in nature, he made a rhyme out of his own...

Take the bigger side minus the smaller side, put the figure on the smaller side. Also for the opposite version. (roughly it is like this la...)

When he wanna us to post from general ledger to Trial Balance, he will say the above rhyme..

When he wanna us to post from Trial Balance to Trading, Profit and Loss account or Balance Sheet, he will tell us to debit the account if it was on credit side of the Trial Balance mentally and credit it either at Trial Balance or Balance Sheet... Very funny hor...

There is also another rhyme he created, I DOT WANNA SHOW IT HERE, I WANNA SHOW IT THERE, PUT A BRACKLET.... Hahaha....

He really tried a lot of ways to help especially those who no accounting knowledge to understand better. We always looking forward for his lesson as he will sure made us laugh like made sia....

Just like today, he made us laugh throughout the whole lessons...
When he called my classmates, all was so nervous that they forgotten how to answer him using that rhyme he created...

Well, salute you, Gerard... You really made learning Accounting fun...
He tried many ways to help us. He even told us, if we missed any lessons, we can make it up by attending his Thursday's lessons. If we attend all his lessons, he can guarantee that we will score well. If we missed a lesson, we will fail for sure unless we are lucky as he will cover one topic for one lesson.

Hope his words came true as I will not missed any lesson of his. As for my Principle Of Economics, I would say, if I follow what that lecturer say, I will sure failed. His lesson not only dull. He is also not very good in teaching. No doubt he is a Doctorate. But we find his teaching a bit funny. He sometimes say softly sometimes raised his voice. Made us very difficult to follow. Hope self study for that will help us passed with flying colours...

Exams will be set on 1 and 14 April. Wish me good luck. I am beginning to love Financial Accounting 1 more and more each lessons.... :P

1 & 8 December 2007

1 December 2007
Today was the exam day for my English Skills.... I am super nervous.... Wondering what will be tested later. There will be MCQs in Section A and B. Summary in Section C and Essay writing in Section D....

The most challenging to me is to write Summary and Essay.... As my English is not very good. Moreover, I had to write 300 words in the Essay writing and not more than 100 words for the Summary. I find it super difficult.

When the clock strike 9am, all students were standing outside the exam class. All looked as nervous as me. No one had 100% confidence as we were all very worried on what might be tested and whether we had done enough practice for today's paper.

When the invigilator told us to enter the class, her only instruction was to take out your stationary as no pencil cases was allowed to be on the table. As per student guide, we need to bring NRIC along for verification purpose. Once we were done, the male invigilator than flashed the exam rules and explained it one by one.

The exams started at 9:30am sharp. When I flipped open the question booklet, the MCQs were not as difficult as it is as we had gone through them before. So I can confidently said that I am happy with my MCQs. As summary we can't choose questions, we had to try to do it. I am not very happy with my summary but there is no way I can make it perfect.

When comes to Essay questions, I was totally stunned... All the questions was super tough. The first question for us to choose is compare working in small company to big organisations. Which you prefer? The second was What is the advantages and disadvantages of starting a family at young age. The third and the last question to choose is Discipline.

Had done survey among close friends in our class, most chose question 1 and 2. Some said question 2 done before. Well, lets just hope all will pass and gets A for English Skills. If not B is also not bad....

Sad to say, one of our classmates choosen to give up and retake the whole module as he did not turn up for today's exam. I only found out at night. There was no way to reverse time. But really think he shouldn't decide on his own. What's over cant be undone. So pray hard he will progress with us smoothly...
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8 December 2007
Today was exam for my Quantitative Skills, which is Mathematics. Though was well prepared but can't help feeling very nervous. My lecturer had shown 100% confidence that I will get A which to me was a great pressure. The day before today, I spent hours practising till I almost going crazy. Thanks to my sister, Nurlinda, she had helped me calm down and read all my frustrations. She encouraged me to stay calm and she believes that I can do it.

When it was almost 9am, all were already outside the exam room. All were super nervous too. We hoped that what we had done for the revision will came out all. So that our extra effort from the lecturer will not be wasted.

Once the invigilator asked us to enter, all took out the stationary from the pencil case and a calculator with a spare calculator in case the other have no batt during the exam time.

All rules being read and explained once again. When the invigilator told us to start, all flipped the questions and do it very carefully. When I saw the questions, all were super familiar... haha... But after I handed over the exam papers and went downstairs, I found that I did a very stupid mistakes which will caused half of the marks in that question to be lost. I should have done using all the methods but was too confidence in myself that I missed out the other two methods of calculation. Oh my god.... Just hope I don't scored very badly. Hoping for A initially, but think if get a B, I will also be jubilant.

As today was the last day of exam, I decided to take train to airport for walk walk. You must be thinking, huh? Airport? What for?

To be frank, ever since Terminal 3 opens to public to tour around, I had wanted to visit it. You can see how many photos I took in my gallery. I was very amazed in the ambience and the designs. They must have spent a lot on all the things. Even the food court which was not ready yet, had cusion chairs. So relaxing. There are a lot of shops for us to shop before we departed from Singapore.

As I will be going to Bangkok next month. I will be doing some research personally to see where to check-in for my plane and where is it located. I will be taking Air Asia, the cheapest among all the budget airlines. The check-in counter is located at Terminal 1 counter 11. It is facing the depature hall. So it was not difficult to locate. As diagonally opposite is the mini foodcourt with sushis, bean products and some pastry for you to bring along to the plane for snack time...
I am super excited and how I wish today is the day I will depart from Singapore to Bangkok... Had took so much effort to talk my mum round and get her permission to let me go.... Had booked the air tickets and only the hotel I am having some problems in booking...

Hope everything will be fine soon. I took skytrain from Terminal 1 to Terminal 3 and then to Terminal 2 for sight seeing... Compared, I find that Terminal 3 looks more trendy that the rest. Have yet visit Budget Terminal. I love the designs in Terminal 3 especially the fountain when you walk in after taking the MRT.

I took numerous of photos and was really looking forward for 17 January 2008 to arrive.... We will definately have lots of fun and laughter... A lot of happy moments will be taken into the cameras of ours. This is our first trip alone without parents tagging along. We are trying the most daring way. This round, no agency, no tour guide, we will be our own tour guide and tour around Bangkok ourselves...

Next round we plan to go Shanghai and will need to save save save for all the expenses incurred, the airfares, the accomodations and the shopping, the food and etc.....

Thailand, Bangkok, I am coming.....

Alright, I'll stop here if not there wont be ending liao.... :P