Mediacorp Fund Raising Show For SiChuan Orphanges(250508)

Last night, I went for the live charity show by Mediacorp. As I was fan of Bro CQ and also I felt that we should have a charity show in order to raise fund for the poor and the needy orphanages which was survivors from the killer quake.

I have to say, I almost cried the whole 3 hours. Well, I was really very shakened. Singapore is really very fortunate. We do not have any earthquakes nor tornado nor any natural disaster.

We are not able to feel what the people in Si Chuan, Wen Chuan and other China provinces felt. The grieveness of losing one or more family members and your home is something, we, Singaporean can never understand deeply unless you have relatives or you were at there when the quake struck.

Not long ago, there is this young lady who said lots of uncivilised comments and cursed and sweared those survivors or those dead people as she could not get into the online games. All commented that she was cold-blooded, ruthless and uneducated.

Maybe she does not felt how those people affected felt. Some online people even commented on her that one day when she met the same situation as what the survivors felt or the family of the dead felt, she will regret what she said that day. A whole 4.41mins of clips(I supposed) of cruel words said. Maybe one day when she think back, she will regret.

I suppose, the person(s) we should blame was the idea of the Toufu building. If not for this conditions, a four storey school will not be now a piece of dead land. If not for this, the lives of the innocent kids and teens will not be killed or had suffered from cutting of their limbs or hands in order to live on. It was heart wretching for seeing so many innocent kids and teens paid their lives on this inconsiderate act.

All the remorse and the sorry will never be able to ease the pain of losing a child which you love dearly. There was a family with a twin who was killed in this quake due to that doufu building. When the mother talked about her grieveness and frustration she had after the tragedy, I cried. She have to accept this cruel truth that her twin daughter will be gone and will never be able to call her Mother. There are a lot of shakkened stories being showed on the tv screen. Every scene really pierce my heart. I feel how they feel as I just lost a friend though not in quake but due to some reason few weeks ago.

Hence I can feel how they felt as those came in a sudden and no one had any preparation and no sign of alarm. Then came this question on my mind, wasn't the authority able to alert the people if there is ever a signal that an earthquake is going to happened.

A total of 7000 schools were affected, either collaspsed or about to collaspsed. It was a big number. I ever wondered, if Singapore was in that situation, will we be able to survive? How to build a building which can withstand a quake? Well, I am not construction worker nor am I studying construction. But deep in my heart, I do hope that this killer quake will never happened ever again.

How long will a country need to have the lost lives back in numbers? How much can we do to help those people affected? Are we doing enough to help them? I sincerely hope that what we does for the Sichuan people is enough to ease their pain for a while and keep them move on their lives and walk over the grieveness.

I also hope that there will be no more Toufu building as it was really not considerate to save the cost but in the end, lives was lost through this inconsiderate act.

During the fund raising, there are few poems read out which made me cried non-stop. One is telling the Mothers Do Not Cry. Another one is to tell the kids Please Hold On To My Hands During The Dark. There were also songs which made me cried like waterfall. When the artistes sang Shou Qian Shou, I cried. When Liang Jia Ban sang, Wo Men Dou Shi Yong Gan De Ren, I also cried. Words of encouragement and grieveness really saddened me.

For those who live in Singapore, you are really very fortunate. For people who have relatives at the affected area, hope that they are all fine. For those who lost their love ones, please be strong. Love have no boarders. Let us ease your pain and live strong. Hope no more natural disasters and may the dead rest in peace...

Sad Sad Week

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Since today evening, I am already sick. I think I am really good at hiding truth...

No one in my class knew I am running fever when I attended the class. Well, that was because, I am always radiance in my facial and hence no one ever suspect my sickness even if my face are red.

Then when I reached home, I am almost fainting but I still have to hang on to wash dishes left by my family after their dinner. It was part of my job at home.

Then I went to bed after I took two tablets of Panadol Extra. Hopefully fever can subsided after a good night sleep.

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Even though I am still not feeling well, but I dragged myself to work as there is a dept meeting later.

When I reached office, I was super quiet. No usual powder breakfast. I was clearing emails and suddenly have an urge to ask the time to past fast. I am getting more and more sick but still do not wish to take leave or mc that day. I managed to hang on till end of the meeting and then before reaching home, I decided to consult my family doctor.

When she measure my tempreture, she was not convinced as she say I am really very hot. Hence she took the second reading and then finally took down the figures.

Then I heard she told me this funny advise, please do not go out to the sun tomorrow and rest at home. Really funny hor? Means I can go out at night lo since cant go under the sun.

After collected my medicines and I went back home to rest.

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Today I did not went to work as I am on MC. But I was super naughty as I did not rest even if I was told.

I woke up at 10plus am, ate the cereal breakfast and then watch some tv programme than I went on to my emails and my friendster updates and etc.

By the time I realised, it was already 4plus pm... Oh gosh, I have to leave the house latest by 5pm as I need to go for lesson at 7pm.

Well, I have to attend class as I need to pass my old textbook to my classmate and hence no matter what I still need to attend today's lesson.

So when I was buying my dinner, I have this urge of checking my MC was the date written correctly. To my suprise, I have two days MC lo. Which means I report to work only on Friday not Thursday. I quickly sms my manager and my team leader(my shifu la).. I also inform my office kakis and tell them that I am only going back on Friday.

When I reached school, it was already 7:05pm. I was late for the first time. Lol. In the end, the book was passed to my classmate after lesson and need to trouble her to pass to her friend in a rush.

Then when I reached home, I log onto my email and change the out of office reply. Then is bed time. :P

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Today really life like a pig.... I slept from 2pm-5pm sia... Then from 12am-7:20am. Lol...

The whole afternoon, I ate two kaya bread and drank two bottles of water. Sounds like slimming session wor. LOL..

Anyway, was slightly recovering but was that stupid cough mixture kept making me drowsy. Hope the effect will go off soon.

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A little consolation prize for myself ba... I managed to catch one small winnie the pool using only $2. Lol

Today met my tour kakis aka secondary school best pals. We meeting at Junction 8 as we planned to go arcade later.

Then we settled down at MOS Burger for dinner and then went to arcade to play racing car and basketball throwing and also our usual hitting game.

Then before we left, we saw the catching machine and I decided to try my luck. I insert the first $1, did not managed to catch it. Then insert another $1, just as I was to give up, it dropped to the box. Wow... So super lucky...

Then I exchange to a pink one. Then let my another friend try, she also managed to catch it using $3. But not for my other friend. Anyway, hope my next trip can catch one for her ba.

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At first was only wanting to go Woodlands's Partyworld to sign up for their singing competition and at the same time, go for the KTV session, but sad to say, I had a bad cough and it had caused me lost voice. So sad.

I began to think, what will make me totally very sad. I guess losing my voice and could not sing, to me is terrible. Actually since Tuesday, my voice was not very good. So sad....

I cant sing is really terrible. Thank god, it is only temporary. So I only need to rest and cure my cough, slowly I am able to sing liao. But how long must I wait? Hope it won't be long ba. :(

A Song For China Quake By JJ Lin Jun Jie<<爱与希望>>

大地被摇晃着
天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了 下一秒瓦解了 泪堆积成了河
但明天是好的
我们要坚定着
爱~让我们不放弃活着 还要继续和大自然拔河

当爱与希望 投射炙热的太阳
昨日泪光 会随时间都蒸发
别轻易放弃 明天要许更多愿望
装满了勇气 就更有力量
当爱与希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
再回头望 又是筑好的家乡
我知道未来还有好多路要闯
我打开了窗 看见了晴朗

Feelings on China Quake

I am sure all have heard of this news and is very concerned for the people out there if you have the heart to know.

The first time when I saw the news, 7.8 earth quake... I wonder, was it really that disaster?

Maybe due to I had never encountered before or I lost my memories of all the news of previous earth quake that claimed many lifes. But this time was really heart throbbing.

Many of the hospital staffs, doctors and nurses lost their lives in this killer quake. All the cries and shouts but will never be able to call back their lives for those dead loved ones. Very sadding...

The most sad thing is the whole school collaspsed after the quake killing many students and teachers. I wonder what is their first feelings. There is really no way to escape for their lifes. I pity their families members. I guess they all will be very very sad and really will pray and hope that their child will be able to save and they can once again hear them smile and joke.

But this disaster is really very bad. I really very shaken. How could the earth be so angry and its one shake can kill so many people. Death toll reached over 40000 as at 15 May 9:55am. How long does it take for us to replaced this 40000 lifes???

Living in Singapore is really very fortunate. We have time to grumble how rice price rose and affect our financial payout. But there at China, Si Chuan, people are fighting their lives to live on under the worst earth quake. I sincerely hope that we can hear that more survivors are being rescued and waiting for more survivors to be rescued. Hope families affected will be strong and hope those who already lost their lives in this killer quake to rest in peace.

May god bless people out there who was affected badly be able to live on and live bravely.

Last Message To Alan Tham

Elaine misses u. Everytime when think of backlogs, I will think of u. Cos I believe no one in Bizlink can ever be so hardworkin and fast like you. Every task given to u, u will do it no matter how high the volume is.

Though at times we scold u thru emails but we meant well. You never hold grudges on us.
Working with you make me feel at ease. As if whenever Bizlink have you, there wont be backlogs.

Losing a frien and a colleague like you, really hurts me. It is first time I lost a friend like you.
We were so near to each other. Your house is just 7 bus stops away, yet we never meet for a chat or walk.

Remember we ever say wanna meet at AMK Hub which we never did and now when thinking of this make me regret. Why din I make up time to ask you for a walk at AMK Hub?
Everytime I saw you online. I was so happy and wanted so much to chat with you. But I never did.

Alan, are you well and happy at the hands of God?

I do hope that next life, we can still be friends. Maybe we are not so close this life, I do hope that next life, I can be you best friend or even the closest friend.
May you rest in peace.

Alan Tham

In loving memories, wake was one day located at BLK 325 AMK. I really miss him.

Anyway, Alan(the one in white cap). hope you can be happy and you will always be in our heart. Thanks for all the help rendered. Losing you is our loss. May you rest in peace.

Memories Of Alan Tham

My first contact with Alan was on Jan 2007 if I am not mistaken. It was the day I started my new permanent position and a day I am in full charge for all the data entry staff.

Initially, I had difficulties in talking to him through emails. As I am still new to them. Many things need them to help and teach me.

My first meeting with Alan was when that time their work computer in Bizlink was down where all connections failed. We arranged them to come over to office here to use and complete data entries.

It was on Day 2 that we force him to come over with the rest. My first impression of him was, he was a bubbly cute boy. He so cute. Initially I was super shy and he was siting just very near me. I didn't talk to him much. But I can feel that he is diligent and fast worker.

With him, we will never need to worry for any backlogs and all the tasks assigned to him, he can complete them within seconds. Well, to err is human. Whenever LI Dept people pin point his mistakes, we will fight it back and say afterall he had done numerous cases. The error rates was just minimal amount ba.

Well, I always believe when you did too many cases, you will have made some mistakes unintentionally. At times LI ppl even mentioned of replacing him. But we did not give him up as we know his efficiency and trusted he will help us throughout all obsticles.

During the surge, he help us to clear and he is the top data entry staffs among all the rest in Bizlink.

Little did we knew that his life was so short. The news of his departure shaken all those who knew him directly or indirectly.

When the first news that he is hospitalized due to lung infection few months ago, we worried for his health. Ever since then, he was posted fully home based data staff.

Also since then, bizlink staff did not met him unless there is any gathering that wish him to join.

And ever since then, our only contact with him was through emails. He will send emails for us to followup almost everyday.

Then came one day, my colleague Lili, discover that Alan seems to be missing in action as there is no emails from him. When emailed him, he did not reply when he usually will. Then we sense something is not very right.

She was correct. Alan was admitted to hospital on 21 April 2008 when he collaspsed while gasping for air. Ever since then, he was unconscious. We can never see he smile and hear his voice.

28 April 2008, he had thrice heart stopped beating. Doctor informed the family(his mother and his brother) that he was already brain dead as there was lack of oxygen to his brain for minutes while they trying to revive him. From then on, we all hope for miracles to fall on him. Hence, his mother uses all machines to keep him working.

Maybe was hoping and maybe was unable to accept the fact that he was already gone, we tends to tell ourselves that, he is moving, he can open his eyes and look around. He can move his hands and legs. He will soon able to talk to us. He can response to us by nodding.

But all these hopes ended on 2 May 2008 when he was pronouced dead. I do not know how and I do not know why. News came from his mother to Juliana. Juliana message me at 6:47pm to inform me this news.

It was too sudden and unable to accept the fact that he was really gone. I was totally shakened. When think of him, I will cry.

Alan, how are you? Hope you will be happy in the other world. It will take time for all of us to accept this cruel truth. We will miss you. Thanks for all that you had done to help us. Thanks.

Alan Passed Away

Today received the world's shocking news. Alan passed away. Such a cruel truth for us to accept. Message from Ju at 6:47pm. Just as I was about to leave office.

On 21 April 2008, Ju received news that he was hospitalized after gasping for air. While on the way to hospital, he collaspsed and went unconcious.

On 28 April 2008, his heart stopped three times, doctor informed the family that he is already brain dead. When I received the news, I was about to go to my lesson.

Brain dead? Its a question I kept asking myself. What do you mean by brain dead? Will he ever recovered? We all hoped for miracle and on 30 April 2008, Ju informed us say he is responding to them through knodding head.

We all thought its a sign that he is recovering. But little did we know that on 02 May 2008, he left us. This news really shocking. Really unable to accept.

Why was god cruel to him? He is so young and so hardworking. So intelligent and so fast learners. Why are we facing this?

Hard to accept and hard to believe. Can anyone tell me why?

Ladies Nite Out To Celebrate Kelly Princess's Bday-30/04/08

Today is our first LADIES NITE DRINK OUT. It was a long planned celebration for Kelly Princess. It was her request as she wanted a different celebration.

We arranged to meet at MOS after my lesson and when I reached, I sms Kelly and asked where are they. She asked me to eat first before meeting them. Then I began to search for ATM machine as I wanted to pay for later's expenses.

Who knows when I exit Central, I saw them walking in. They also showed very shocking expression as none of us expect we will met each other at there.

Then we proceed to Liang Court and from there I withdraw money for later's expenses and cab fare. Then we proceeded to MOS and queue for entrance.

It was a super long queue but within half an hour, we already enter and to our dismay, there is not Ladies Nite. Hence we have to pay $20 for entrance fee.

Well, there is a lot of people inside MOS. As tomorrow is public holiday, hence all came here and destress just like us. As the night falls, the crowd increase rapidly. Soon, the ballrooms were filled with people.

As we find it very crowded downstairs, we decided to go to 2nd floor to have a look as every floor have different theme. At there we took lots of photo and had lots of fun. I drank two glasses of Volka Ribina. This does not taste nice wor. I prefer Drangonfly's drink.

Then we met JY's friend Henry when he came up and join us. We chat for a while and then watch the crowd. As three of us very tired, hence we decided to sneak out and decided to left for home. I bid good bye to the duo and then started to walk to the bus stop where I can take the feeder night bus home. Then I saw Kelly's sms. She asked me to go back and join them. Though I am tired but decided to go back as she say it was happening inside.

Probably due to tired, I did not wish to dance. Than I saw most of them dance as the music roared. All rock or retro music. Not bad but just that it was super crowded. Time is now 2plus and there are more and more people flocked in.

When Kelly and JY went to buy Flaming LBGN, I decided to sneak out one last time as I am super tired and I am worried I might spoil their mood.

Then when Kelly sms me and asked where am I, I replied say I am going home. She was angry, I supposed, as I did not bid good bye to them. Henry thought I am at the toilet then he went to look. Little did they know that I had already left MOS.

Well, going home isn't smooth journey. Prehaps it is punishment ba. I took the wrong bus and ended up alighting at Sengkang. Time is now 3am plus. Left with no choice, I took a cab home. The cab fare was very expensive. It was $9 from Sengkang back to my home. Oh gosh!

Well, Kelly, I hereby apologise that I left without bid goodbye. I also know I shouldn't do that. Hope you do not angry. I owe you drinks and shall arrange for next drinking session. I promise this round I won't left without you chasing me. LOL.

Alright, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY. Hope you like our present and hope that you had great fun today. :P

First Lesson For Financial Management-30/04/08

Today is the first lesson for Financial Management. The lecturer is a 60++ uncle. Oh my god.....

He did not intro and started his lesson 10 mins after 7pm. He was going thru the first day of theory lesson. He said maybe bored but we have to go thru and listen.

Then he mentioned that what we learnt in Financial Account 1 and Economics will be linked to this module. One thing we all do not agree is the way he present the Balance Sheet. He place debit on the credit side and credit on the debit side and he say this is the correct way of showing Balance Sheet. Oh gosh! Why is this lecturer confusing the rest of the students with no Accounting background.

Well, the lesson ended on time and today is my party nite out. So after lesson, I proceed to Clarke Quay to meet the rest of my friends. After today's lesson, I find that it was very easy initially. He keep stressing us to buy the textbook and he say we can forgo the project as long as we finished out homework and hand it over to him promptly. As long as no need do project, we will be very pleased. Thanks to this Uncle. But I have to say, he is very good in teaching. Too bad we met him too late.

As for Derek, he is also great teacher to teach Economics. We all missed a very good teacher. Hence, I have confidence that I will excel in these two modules. Wish me good luck. :P

First Lesson On Management Accounting 1-28/04/08

Today is the first lesson for Management Accounting 1. Lecturer is Derek Hui. He looks very young. Probably 20++ ba.

When he first started to intro, we thought he will keep it short and simple. Who knows, when he showed his photo shot, the class exclaimed, "WOW!". The reason is cause, that photo does not look like him. It was a makeover photo.

Then he started his brief introduction. Before we knew, he continued his three slides plus introduction. We were all very pissed off. The reason is because, we think he is trying to show off his wealth.

He mentioned he was once in a partnership, where he is lecturing and his sole proprietor company. He is dealing with stock exchange. After this super long intro, he then began to talk about the project requirements.

It took almost half a lesson before he started today's lesson. Oh gosh... Anyway, he is quite humor la. Think we should be able to pass under his guidance ba. Good luck. :P