Wrapped Up June 2011(3)

27 June 2011 (Monday)
Typical school day with unusual long hours of spending in school. Reason being, I am too quick to select to attend this CE talk in HR Strategies which will start from 4.15pm-5.30pm.

Sad to say the speaker was caught up in traffic jams and came only at 4.40pm. Fearing that it will dragged the whole thing till 6pm, hence some already left after signing in.

During the whole presentations, I saw a guy next to me was sleeping. I was actually sleepy but cannot sleep as I fear later I am unable to write RJ. Hence I pay more attention during the talk. Ironicly, I do not choose HR as my module. But I chose Hotel as my core. Am I a hotel person? I am really not sure. But I am definitely not a HR person.

Thanks god that the whole thing ended just slightly later than 5.30pm. But by the time I reached home with that slow coach bus, it was already 7plus pm. Time to catch my favourite drama at Channel 8 and rest for the day. Still thinking when will I need to do that RJ, hope it will not be difficult. :D

28 June 2011 (Tuesday)
Was telling myself, no matter what today have to attend this workshop as I will be able to get the hang of knowing chemistry at least the basic.

Together with two other classmates, we went to queue for the attendance taking. Thanks god that seat was reserved for us by one of my classmate's friend.

I was so tired that I could not concentrate well in the whole workshop and keep yawning. Plus, the facilitator or was it the module chair did not really teach in depth. He is just merely repeating what was being taught in class during the 6P presentations.

Interval, they gave out the worksheets and asked us to spend 30 minutes to complete it, but did not go through the answers with us.

We were told that attendance stands 1 ND CE points and we need to get 50% correct for the quiz at the end of the workshop in order for us to get another 1 points. If I knew it will be that way, I guess I rather not attend. :X

In the end, I learnt nothing and fearing I will fail this time round. I should get help from friends now. Hopefully I can be in time to get help and somehow brush up my scores for the upcoming UT. Not hoping for A's, if get C's I will be contented.

29 June 2011 (Wednesday)
It is unusual for me to attend gathering on weekdays. CBS gathering made it special as it falls on Wednesday evening. The venue is Crazy World Cafe, a place I never been to and located in Chinatown.

But got chance to meet Diya and Carrie, that cheers me up a lot. It had been a long time since we last met. Keep wondering when was the last time I met them, was it at Music Clinic or was it at some events? The memory was so far. They are really nice bunch of ladies.

Recalling how I came to know them, it was through Music Clinic or was it through Xiaohan lao shi and Jim lao shi? I really mixed up. Anyway, knowing them really cheers me up. Dee always forget my name and Cee always the one remembering my name. Their smiles always brightens my days without fail.

It is my first time attending the gathering but will never be the last, I promise. They talked about their feelings to us, how they cope with their struggles and how our little words can motivates them to continue working.

We reached at 7pm plus and ate our dinner there. Than was asked to leave the cafe first while they re-arranged the space so that it will be spacious for us to sit and stand to watch it. They started singing Xiao Dong Zhuo. That really bring up the atmosphere to high point.

I like the ambience there and I like the fact that we are close even though we seldom chat and seldom meet. The most humour part was when Dee said till so emotional but the song that they going to sing turns out to be happy songs. I can feel how they feel when they met dead ends. But glad that they never give up and glad that I can be part of the fanclub though I am not really fan member.

They made me so embarassed when Dee started saying out my twitter name as HaiMianBaoBao. Than Cee added that I always will ask them do they remember me and my name. But today I remain very quiet and enjoying the whole gathering. Interval, we were asked to write a letter to 1 year later us to tell the feelings we had today and what we wish to achieve in 1 year time. We were each given a letter paper and envelope. I did not write a lot but imagine you are writing for the time capsule? 1 year later when you received this letter, how will you feel for 1 year ago you?

I envy Cee and Dee's courage and their energy level. They are always so high and so energetic. How I wish I can be like them. Though I know I can never be like them for now. But I will be working my way to be like them.

Thanks Dee and Cee for making my Wednesday night so happening. It's a pity that I have to leave early today as I have lesson tomorrow. But I really enjoyed myself and really happy that they never forget me and they will remember me as who I am. Never will they look down on me. Thanks CBS for giving me power to smile.

30 June 2011 (Thursday)
Today I cried. Why I cried> I also do not really know why. Maybe because I can no longer take it. I know they do not like me for whatever reasons they have. For whatever stereotyping mindset they have.

But no matter how hard I tried I can never break this wall. Imagine you will never fall for someone in the class and they kept making fun of you?

I really do not know how long I can endure. Why I am so weak? Why I am so easy target to be bullied? Some facts that is not even facts but I have to let it be and ignore.

Can you imagine how hurt it can be when you are trying so hard to please them and yet they never appreciate you and never take into the account that you do have feelings?

Anyway, fortunately is, we will not be classmates for long. We will change every 6 months. Just hope for the better. :D

I was telling one of my friend, if one day I cannot take it, I might do something silly. She told me if that day were to come, find her. She will do it with me. I guess that is friendship which keeps me alive.

I cherish friendship and I wish they also do. But why they treat me this way? I really do not know. What went wrong? I guess I will never found the answers.

Its end of June. Time passes so fast without you realising it is passing. Imagine the first time I step into RP as a vistor and now as a student.

Still remember the very first day, I kept asking myself, is it really real that I am a student in RP? Am I really a student now? Full time student?

Since April till now, 1st semester of Year 1 will end soon. What have I achieved? Looks like nothing in real. I yearn for friendship but it always failed me. I yearn for someone who really knows me well, it turns out to be only the friends I made outside knows me well and trust me fully. Never breaks my heart and never will they fails to make me smile.

I do not know why I become so sentimental, so emotional. I just realised, I no longer is me. Where is the old me? Where have I lost to? Where can I find me?

Typical Saturday 180611

What does typical Saturday means to you?

Well, to me, it will be sleep sleep sleep the whole day without doing anything. Basically is just lazing away at home. My ways to kill typical Saturday will be, first have a very yummy brunch, watch DVD for few hours, waiting for Mum to bring home goodies for snacks, sleep again till evening time to catch the drama series on Channel 8, dinner cum supper and sleep!

For today there will be changes as I discovered that I haven't blog for such a long time. Almost a month plus ago was my last blog dates. So unproductive it can be.

Since CQ is now in Changmai filming for his charity variety show, Ivy Jie in Phillipines for her enjoyable diving holiday, no events informations on hand. So it will mean it is a stay home Saturday.

So I decided to start blogging on days with happening events. Well, my happenings to you may not be happenings. But it is my way to record and read in future to put smiles on my face.

Ever since I started my life as purely a student. Life this way is only school home school home. How no life is me? Luckily, at some breaks, I have gatherings to attend and also mini get together.

I know I have not been very active in some planning of gathering. I will soon adjust and will be arranging for some mini gatherings soon. The upcoming gathering which needs to plan will be Jie's gathering for her fans. It is rather tedious and hence, I created an email account to better facilitate us to carry out this gathering. But first, we need Jie to give us the date and she will only give us after she came back from Phillipines. Hopefully it will not clashed with any of my plans. Anyway, felt very happy for her as she is now more and more popular.

Not to bored you further with words, as some of my friends said my blogs is filled with words and only words. That is also due to, I am not a very creative people and neither am I IT savvy. Hence, do not blame me for bores you guys as this blog that was created is meant for myself to read and smile and laugh.

Time to sleep again and replenish energy. So I shall end here and will try to blog as often as possible. Hopefully the next blog will not take 1 month plus to post. Preparing for next upcoming UT. I need to really pull up my socks and wake up my IDEA! Pray hard for next week where the UT1 results will be out. I already saw my Science UT1 where I got C. Seems not bad with good as grade. If I can pass my Mathematics, that is really MIRACLE~~~

Alright, zhou gong is calling me. Bye bye readers, if any, I will try try try to blog often. Wish you guys great health, happy and good looking forever. Bless all with great lucks too. :D

HaPpY bIrThDaY iVy JiE~~~ 160611

Its my sweetest and coolest Jie's bday today. She is going to Phillipines for her enjoyable diving holiday while me stressing on the last UT1 paper of this semester.

Without her to say jiayous on air this morning, really feeling that something was missing somehow.

But glad that she will be enjoying later, puts a smile on my face.

Talking about how long I knew her, I did not know for how long. I just knew that time when I first started her very first fanspage on facebook, she was very shocked and thankful. Though initially the response wasn't that great and at times, it was not that active.

It was only recently when she hosted the night programme where she becoming more and more popular with many of the powerful fans who supported her throughout her hosting slots.

When I started school, I felt very sad as I could not support her programme for most of the days. I only get to hear her programme every Friday night as Saturday have no lesson and I could catch till 2am without worrying I will have sleepy heads the next day.

She did not blame me and we also did not drift further due to this. When we did a mini celebration on 14th June 2011 (Tuesday), she was very happy and suprised for the celebrations though she knew we will be meeting her at RG.

When I saw her smiles and happiness, all the tiredness and stress somehow disappeared. I love to see her smile and say thanks to us for brightened her nights.

Jie, want to tell you, no matter what, I will always be your meimei. No matter if I can support your programme on night slot, you will always be the best in my heart. Looking forward for this gathering. Hopefully, you will be happy.

Happy Birthday to you, Jie(Ivy). May you be forever happy, forever healthy and forever cool! Also forever famous and pretty. Happy sweet 18th Bday!

Wrapped Up June 2011(2)

140611 (Tuesday)
Its 2nd day of lesson after the 11 days break. How fast time passes without you notice. There goes the break and there comes endless problems to be solve every study day.

Today is also the 2nd last UT1 of this semester. It is Communication. This round, I had some preparations with notes done for this module. Basically was just transferring the slides into Microsoft Word documents kind of action. This was being taught by the OB module chair during the workshop which I attended during the break.

Today's lesson is Mathematics on area under curve in the graph. It is supposed to be easier problem to be solve. I think it is, hope the facilitator won't give us hard questions to solve. Our team were given 2 questions to presents to the class. The end results to us was not bad but not sure what will it be to the facilitator.

I took the compiled slides done by Fatin and started to revise on the Communication. Hopefully something will get into my head at least. Maybe was due to nervous, I did not open the slides that she had prepared. Instead, I opened the MW documents which I did.

When the time comes to UT1, I was feeling very nervous again. I wonder when will I not feel nervous. I still remembered that previous UT which were invigilated by this Mathematics facilitator, she mentioned that we were angels during this 45minutes of total silence. I do not know why she do not like us being noisy. But I thought discussions were meant to be noisy with 25 students in the class or at least 20 students in the class.

Anyway, the UT questions for me was not bad but maybe due to nervous, I find it difficult to answered them all. I almost not able to finish the whole UT questions when the facilitator reminded us for last 5 minutes. Hence, I did not really double check my answers but was sure that I did not leave any blanks.

Pray hard that I will score a pass for this UT. If not, I really have to buck up and strive for UT2 and UT3 so as to pass this module with breeze. Will I be able to do it? I have to and I will work towards. Many people have faith in me and I have to prove that their faith did not failed.

Jiayouz Elaine, you can definately do it!

150611 (Wednesday)
Its Wednesday and a day I am looking forward to as it is once again COMMUNICATION lesson. I do not know why I am so looking forward to. Maybe I am hoping to see Mrs B again after such a long time for not having her to facilitate us.

Sad to say, she again did not come to school. I bet this pregnancy had made her suffers which made her unable to come to work. Hope she will be fine soon and come back to facilitate us.

Today's topic was on editing a newsletter article to make it publisable in school magazine. It covers on basic manners in Singapore teenagers. There was this STOMP article on two students in their uniform sitting at the entrance of the MRT trains causing an obstruction and inconveniences for passengers to board and to alight the train.

We need to change some of the contents and also need to mention STOMP or any resources which we used for this newsletter article. It sounds so difficult but we somehow managed to get it through and work things out.

The facilitator who came to relief our class, to us, she is super hyper for some reasons. But we do not know why she will be so hyper to relief us. Anyway, she is trying to make the lesson more interactive and lively. I bet she can be a director then. Or maybe a pre-school teacher.

Time passes fast and looks like our lesson will end fast too. Which is great! As we will have more time to do our quiz, evaluations of peers and self and also completing RJ.

How I miss Mrs B. Hopefully she will be back next Wednesday with baby growing inside her womb. :D

160611 (Thursday)
Finally, last paper for UT1, Organizational Behaviour. Did not really remember if I did this module before when I was in PSB Academy. But somehow, I remember I saw before Maslow thingy. Anyway, today is also OB lesson.

How stressful it can be when you have the UT just on the lesson itself. It can be also not stressful where you can get to clear your doubts before the UT. The facilitator promise to release us early so as to allow us to do revision. He also knew we were all very tired for some reasons.

Today's presentation was not as what he thought that successful as he did not gave us any directions as to what to be presented. Hence he said he will not penalized us badly on the presentations. I guess he will look at the RJ and allocate our daily grades.

Once again, I did the MW documents notes and also, I bought the text book and was wondering will I be using the text book for reference later during the UT. Anyway, since they say open book, so I better bring the book to safe guard myself.

When the time comes for UT, everyone look relaxed. I was a bit tensed and nervous. Thanks to CQ who gave me jiayouz on air just now, that really boost my confidence a little and made me a bit relaxed. I would also like to thank him for his trust in me that I can definately do it.

When browsing the first questions, I was a bit relieved. The questions seems to be easy. I looked at the notes I prepared just to confirmed if I am wrong or not. But when comes to inserting the choices in terms of priority, I became nervous and kept changing the answers.

Then I began to attempt the next questions and the next. As it came till further questions, it became harder each time. The notes does not seems to be of any help as it also needs some prior knowledge. I was very disappointed in myself for not able to do well in the UT.

Luckily, I managed to finish all the questions without leaving blanks and had some time to check if I had missed out any questions. Just praying hard that the results will not be very bad.

To celebrate ending of UT1, I treat myself a cup of Sweet Talk Champange Grape Milk Tea. Though I wasn't happy with the UT end products of mine. But I will buck up and work hard for the upcoming UT2 in July. Time really flies and the UT2 is so near yet so far!

All the best for all of my classmates and me. Hope for the best in UT1 and better in UT2 and UT3!!!

Wrapped Up June 2011(1)

1st June 2011 (Wednesday)
Its last day before the so call 2 weeks break. I already have plan on how to spend my break wisely.

Today is Problem Solving lesson instead of the usual Communication lesson. It is due to all have to end by Problem 6. Hence the lessons will be jumping up. I met a little problems but was soon resolved before the presentation. I have to apologise to my team mates as I did not contributed anything for today's problem as I really do not understand it.

Thanks for not blaming me much as I did not help much. Also thanks for being forgiving and allow me to do the presentations well.

Its starting of June and also starting of planning for 2 of my friends birthday gift. I online asking for friends' contribution for one of my friend's present. She hoping to get a video camera to aid in the events shooting as the camera which we bought for her in previous birthday gift failed to capture it well.

The response initially not good. But hopefully the outcome will be good. Happy June holiday to those in Primary School, Secondary School and maybe JCs. But happy 11 days holiday for RP students.

2nd June 2011 (Thursday)
Though it is first day of the 11 days break, here I am in school for workshop on Acquiring Essential Skills in Organisation. Not due to there is CE points for this workshop but is due to there will be tips in preparing for the upcoming UT.

I thought since it is break, so might not have much people attended. But when I reached the place, there was a queue for attendance taking. I went to ladies first before joining the queue. Though I brought my laptop along but since I worried that my laptop will be down due to my battery will be dead after few hours. Hence I took notes in my small notebook. I taken down the notes according to the module chair's mentioned. Intervals of each lesson slides, there is mini quiz which enable us to understand better.

I find it more confidence to tackle the upcoming UT1. Wonder will there be the same workshop when comes to UT2 and UT3. Hopefully there is. I learnt a lot after this workshop and will use the notes to prepare my UT notes for the upcoming UT.

5th June 2011 (Sunday)
Its Evonne's birthday. I did not remembered for how long we had known each other. But I am happy to be her friend. We are same age and have some kind of similar characteristics and mentality.

Sad to say, I wasn't able to be there to celebrate her birthday. Even so, I wish she will read this and I can express my greetings for her.

Knowing her is my pleasure. Through her, I learnt a lot. With her help, I am able to make the fan club a success. Also through her, we had made gathering a success too. Just want to wish her Happy Birthday. Sorry that I could not really fulfilled her birthday wish for a video camera. But I just hope she is happy when she received the sum of money.

Wish her happy, health and pretty forever. Wish her with great health and happy forever. May our friendship soar and friends forever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVONNE!!!

7th June 2011 (Tuesday)
Its our first class gathering! A day I am looking forward for to build bonds in between all classmates and clear all misunderstanding if there is.

I meeting Apple at 1pm at Yishun as we live quite near each other. After which we took bus to Tampines to meet Germaine, Cherlyn, Yiping, Leona, Brandon, Pei Xian and Derrick for purchasing stuffs needed for the chalet.

After which, we took bus to Changi where we bought drinks, ice and some other stuffs which we did not buy at Tampiness. We took some photos before we headed down to the chalet located opposite the Old Changi Hospital, Yatch Club Chalet B (not knowing if it is correct in my memory).

Since we do not know where is the chalet as we did not book it. Hence, we called up Ivan to direct us to the chalet. Upon reaching chalet, I realised, it wasn't what I imagined. Anyway, it is the very first chalet.

I did not tell most of them, but I had bad feelings upon reaching the chalet. Maybe partly was due to it is old chalet, partly is also I am worried I will be party spoiler. Luckily, we broke the ice and started chatting inside the room. We also played Murderer using poker cards. It is fun and we also chatted in between.

I felt that our friendship is closer each time when we chatted. Just hope that we can be friends forever and I really enjoyed being with them. After that, I left with Apple as her sister came and fetch her home. I took the ride was due to its on the way. They dropped me at Khatib where I took a bus home with smiles as I felt that I had some bonding with some of them. Hopefully, there will not be anymore misunderstanding as I wish to make friends not enemies in school. Thanks W47C. We certainly will have our next gathering and next and next.

10th June 2011 (Friday)
Its Friday and a happy Friday. Long time never had fun and laughter. Meeting Evonne first after that meeting Steven, Xingyu, Faith and Yiting. It is my first time seeing Yiting. She is so pretty.

We were initially stucked in where should we go as Marina Square seems to be not very good choice as it was crowded with people going for the IT Show and also events in MS. In the end, we set the venue to be the Hong Kong Cafe under MS.

Since the seats inside the cafe was full. The manager suggested that we take the seats outside. We agreed and they went to prepare the seats for us. We ordered the food and then we chatted on many things under the moon. (why not sun as it is already evening time)

We chatted on many incidents happened between us. Experiences we had and cracking many jokes. It was really long time since I had a great laugh. Thanks to all who made my Friday so happening.

Our ending conclusion is Red is friendly colour and blue is unfriendly colour. HAPPY FRIDAY!

Wrapped Up May 2011(3)

230511 (Monday)
Nervous nervous~ Today is the very first Understanding Test after so many lessons. Though knowing it will be open book test, but we are not allowed to have any written notes on papers but we are allowed to refer to the 6P slides for each lessons. The test is from Lesson 1 till Lesson 5.

It will be a 45minutes test. But I am very nervous that I cannot finished on time and in turn failed the whole test. Some more, it will be on Mathematics lesson day when this first UT is. I am always worried in Mathematics lesson that I could not have any contributions to the team and bring down the whole team's marks. Luckily that the facilitator is kind, she gave us presentation which seems to be easy ways to do powerpoint slides.

When the time comes to the UT1 starting, the feeling of nervous is crawling inside my body. That is especially due to I did not study much before the UT1. When I look at the first question, it is not difficult. But as I scrolled down it gets harder each question. I am getting more and more nervous but forcing myself to calm down and managed to complete all before the time is up.

I did some check and ensure that I had answered all the questions and not leaving blanks. Hopefully, I did not score very badly. If I did badly, I will work hard in UT2 and UT3 which will be harder than UT1 as it is accumulative test. Also hope that the daily grade can help to pull me up. Wednesday will be another UT, so have to start a little revision before I regret.

250511 (Wednesday)
Its Wednesday but can be bad Wednesday to me. Though I am always looking forward for Wednesday's lesson, Introduction to Communication, where I will be facilitate by my favourite facilitator, Mrs B.

But sad to say, Mrs B did not come for lesson today. Probably is due to her pregnancy. This facilitator is so pretty. She is also very lively. The lesson became lively and many of us commented she is very pretty. Not saying Mrs B not pretty ok. :D

Since it is Science UT1, she will be releasing us from lesson early. She giving us more time to do revision. I guess it helps as it boost my confidence a little. Though I had made some small notes on the card, but I did not refer to it. What I did was, I open all the 6P slides and prepare for the UT to be starting.

Science first few lessons was simple for me to understand but as the facilitator left the school to relieve in Sports school, we were all facilitated by very bad facilitator who does not help us much and in turn, we unable to understand the lesson. More over, I had forgotten all about physics. Hence, I could not understand the whole lessons even though I have 6P after the lessons.

I just pray that the questions will be simple and enable us to pass at least. When I look at the first lesson, I find that I had to refer to 6P to confirm my answers. Luckily I am able to finish all questions on time and did some check to ensure no blanks in the answers and also to correct any wrongful answers that was being typed in.

I know I did very badly. Hoping I did not fail that badly. Have to get ready for the most fearing UT in my modules. That is Mathematics which will be on Friday. Hopefully I am able to get at least half of the 6Ps into my head and do well in the whole UT.

270511 (Friday)
Its finally FRIDAY. But we have to have 3 more lessons before we will be having our so called 2 weeks break. But today we have UT1 for Mathematics.

It is also celebration as our facilitator for Science is finally back. Just a pity that he came back late as our UT was already over. When he was going through the UT answers, I was very worried that I could not scored well. Worst was, I was unable to start my computer and had to restart the computer. Hence, I did not concentrate much on the answers for UT1.

Wanted to ask him if I failed all UTs, what other ways we can make ourselves pass the module? Does daily grades help in passing the modules?

Since it will be UT later, so he, like other facilitators, releasing us early for us to do revision. Suprisingly, he is able to provide guidance for Mathematics when some of them asked him questions. That made me suddenly remembered that he is giving tuition for Mathematics also. I did not approach any classmates for help this round as I do not know what I don't know. I guess that was also due to I did not prepared for this UT.

Time passes fast and soon it will be starting of the UT. Everyone are nervous, I am even more nervous. Basically is due to, I worried I did not do well now. When I skim through the questions, I panicked. When I started attempting them, I am panicking after each question. When facilitator announces left 15 minutes, I am not even at last questions. Luckily, I managed to finish all the questions and checks for any blanks.

Just pray hard that I did not do badly. Praying for at least a C grade for the UT. I must buck up and work hard to ensure that I did not panick during the UTs.

May is ending and soon will be break for us to rest and revise for the last 2 UTs. Upcoming will be also our first class chalet. Looking forward to better bonding with the class and hopefully I can clear all misunderstandings. Also will make use of one day to have lunch with my dearest mummy Huihui and do some catch up session. Also some catch up with Faith and gang since I was always busy with my school work and studies. May ended in busy and stressful way. Hopefully it will be better when as time goes by.

Amazed that I can endure till now. I will work harder and try to get good results. Thanks to all who supports me throughout and believe in me totally that I can do it. So I shall not make them disappointed in me.

HaPpY bIrThDaY mUfFiNs~~~ 140511

Its our 1 year old birthday... Time passes that fast.

Still remember the first time when we came into contact with Princess Serene. Steven was the one who said, we will open a fan club for her.

I still remember the first time I heard Princess singing was in one of the drama series on Channel 8. When I first heard, Ming Zhi Wo Ai Ni, I was truly touched by the lyrics.

Then when, Evonne asked me if I want to accompany her to the first press conference. I was like, who is she? When I first saw her on stage, it was, WOW feeling. How could someone so look alike as Princess in this world and sings so touching songs. That was when I came to be upclose to her. It was also the starting of our friendship since then.

Through her, I knew Jim lao shi, Xiao Han lao shi and Huang Yun Ren lao shi. Now that Muffin-renes is 1 year old. I would like to say, thanks to those who came and started this fan club. Also thanks to those who made this fan club possible, from only five members to now more than ten members. I am so happy.

Once again, Happy Birthday to Muffin-renes!