My Feelings

突然很想用华文来写这篇心情写照。
问我这一生做过了什么事能够很骄傲的说来？想想好像没有。
我的爱情还是交白卷，生活还是寂寞的。
大人们常常说，缘分还没到。该来的一定会来的。你还年轻，不怕嫁不出去。可是我还是很孤独，很寂寞。

虽然我的朋友手指都不够数，可是朋友始终不能代替男朋友。看到朋友都有个伴，我的他到底在哪里？

月老你能不能告诉我，我的那个他在哪里？

曾经对自己说，如果25岁了还是孤家寡人一个，我就去婚姻介绍所去相亲。哈哈。。。难道真的要这么做吗？谁可以帮我？

Updates on December 2009 (1)

3rd December 2009
Finally started my lesson at Higher Advance. This is the last stage in the group vocal singing class.

In the end, I joined Dawn's class which was actually planned for me but due to my Advance class delayed, hence I was late to joined their class. If not I have to wait for 2 months to find another class for myself.

Today was my first lesson with them but it was their 4th lesson. Which means I was lagging behind by 3 lessons. Everything was new. New classmates and new environment. Except the teacher is not new, Rollin Lao Shi. :D

We actually have lesson at 7.30pm but due to not all present hence delayed. It was my first time see Dawn so close. I was very shy and whole lesson was super quiet. I met Augustine, Jiaqing, Jiayi and Dawn. Augustine was trying to get me intro myself but I can only say my name is Elaine. Haha.. Do not sound like me hor? Even Rollin Lao Shi also know why I was so quiet. He even say once I am adapting to this class I will be a bit noisy liao. :D

It was the first time I sang Qian Yan Wan Yu using Peter Lao Shi's version. Wonder why I was so brave to sing before Dawn and Jiayi. Anyway, was really fun to have lesson with them. They are more fun and noisy than the others in my previous class. :D

5th December 2009
Today was a long awaiting day. It was Ivy Jie's Gathering. We prepared since November. Venue was Larbordra Park(I think have spelling error).

It was supposed to be a happy gathering. At least during this gathering we were all happy. But there was something unhappy happened behind the scene which made the some of us very upset and angry.

Shall not name the person as was not worth mentioned. Well, supposed to help out for the grocery purchasing, end up due to somethings, did not turn up and only told us the night before. Starting was a lie saying was being pulled to join as one of the member was sick. Then came another lie, not that I do not wish to attend the gathering but had no choice to leave the group. Lies after lies. After that treat like nothing had actually happened and asked for forgiveness.

Some of us started to want to give a chance. But later we came to know those were all lies. Truth was, volunteered for the event, purposely place the practice on 5th December and told us lies after lies to make us believe or rather make the whole world believe it was just an innocent mistake. Well, I do know we have to have a forgive and forget heart. Do that person deserve our forgiveness and forget the whole incident, erased just like erased a black board?

Anyway, what's said cannot be unsaid. What's done can never be undone. Since choosen to do that to us, should be prepared to face the music and face the consequences of losing friendships. Since friendship to that person was so cheap and so easy to give up, why turn back and said I am sorry?

Glad that the gathering was not affected by this incident. Indeed everyone enjoyed. In turn, I make new friends like Min En, Fion and Xuehui(I know ur name is not spelt like that).

Thanks to Steven, Andrew, Evonne Jie, Xingyu, Wei and the rest for making this day happened and for making Jie so happy. A day to be remembered. Thanks.

After the gathering, was the sneak preview for the Storm Warriors by Down Syndrome Association Singapore. I bought the movie ticket to support the charity. I must say the movie was great and worth watching again and again.

After that, I watched Case 39. It was really a very scary movie that I was totally freak out. If it was still showing, please spend time to catch it. :D

10th December 2009
It was my 2nd lesson with them though it was their 5th lessons. Was getting more and more adapted to this class and getting more and more into their fun learning.

We even tricked Rollin Lao shi by changing the times 2 to times half. That made the exercise be 15 times half equals to 7 and a half. Everyone was very cooperative and we really stopped at the count of 7 and a half.

But indeed, that way makes the lesson more fun but in turn we lost time to learn something more. Anyway, I am kinda love VS132. Thanks.

17th December 2009
It was my 3rd lesson and their 6th lesson. I learnt a lot today. We first starting from the focus voice. Than was asked to lean against the wall using the posture singing. Then was the lip position, every word sing with correct lip position and it can help with the pronouncing of words.

Then we have to do all in a whole, Focus, diaphram, breathing, lip position and movement. It was not easy and when we have too many things to focus, some of the steps we will missed. So Rollin Lao Shi suggest that we go home practice one step at a time and than combined all once we are comfortable.

I also learnt that movement and feelings will affect the projection of voice and the correct singing of the song. That really helps a lot for my future audition. I hope I can get it into practice soon. :D

Updates on November 2009(3)

26 November 2009
Can you imagine? I actually called in and won myself a pair of ticket to watch Twilight. I cannot even believe my ears when I heard the ringing sound from the phone.

It was kor hosting. I seldom have chance to call in and thanks to kor, I won it. So happy. I am going to watch with Yvonne Mei. The chatroll people all also shocked when they heard my voice. I too was shocked. So happy. Also happy as my voice is already back after so long. Hurray.. :D

30 November 2009
What a great day to end my not so okay november. It was the sneak preview for Twilight. I was very excited and also hoping to see Mian Woon at the cinema as we never met before and wanted to know how she look like. But sad to say, she cannot recognised me but I can recognised her.

We did not talk at all as she was sitting far behind me. Anyway, great to see her.

Oh gosh!!! The Twilight was not bad movie. The werewolf was so handsome. Of course most people will say Edward is handsome than Jacob. But I think Jacob is more attractive.

Well, I don't really like the idea of them putting so thick foundation just to differentiate a normal human and a vampire.

I have to say the last scene where all the vampires appear, that lady vampire with the red hood looks very attractive. If I am a male, I will say CHIO BU. Haha...

But the ending was not even an ending. Edward did not bite Bella and Bella did not leave with Jacob. But she knew Jacob's love. She still chose to be with Edward as she was very deeply in love with Edward. Very nice romance movie. I think there will be another episode of Twilight. Lets wait and see. :D