Blogs For March 2007

Tired 290307
Tired tired tired... Very tired and exhausted... The target given to me is tooo high.. I am so sick and so weak... How??? How to hit that target of her's????
Recently felt so restless after work. Dot know why... So lonely... I am all alone.... So sad.... Seems like no one is there for me... When will I be able to find my Mr Right???
Who can help me???? Help..........

Tired and Updates 260307
Yoz every human beings... Here I am updating you with my present occupation.... I am working straight 7 days a week... Sounds like robot hor.... But I am dead tired...
Well, from Monday to Friday, I am still working in NTUC Income as Admin Assistant(which is coordinator between Life Insurance Dept and agent in real life)... My weekends are contributed to my first part time job which you may have read years ago.... That is none other than my beloved KFC...
Many ppl say I am crazy.. Some tell me to give up since I am so so so so worn out. But I dot wan... I know I am ruining my health but I just dot wan to be sooooo sian at home during weekend. Though going back to work at KFC is a tough decision made. But I did not regret making it.
Kor, I know you care for me, You will get mad if I say I decided to continue. I know I am making my health worst. But I promise you I will take extra care. I will not let myself to fall.
Jie, I am sorry when I made soooo many mistakes. I hope I will never did those mistakes. Really sorry.
Well, dot ask me where I work as I will not tell. Jus pray hard I will gain more than I lose... More importantly, I hope it will be a free slimming session for me... Haha....
Take care folks... Will keep you guys update should there be any other new infor of me... haha...

Message For Jie(19 March 2007)
Jie, I didnt mean to make you sad.. I realli was not intended to do so.
But I am equally hurt too. I know I am very immatured and always makes you worried and sad. I really tried my best not to but each time I failed. Please forgive me. I will not repeat it again.
Whatever you say, I will try to do it. Whatever you dislike, I will not do it again. This I promise. I will never make you worried again.
I hope that no more tears for me. I only hope for smiles for me. Take care.

Message for Jie(6 March 2007)
Maybe missing for a few days, you will miss me. I am still in a dillemma whether to let you know the truth. Truth is so hurting and cruel. But no matter what, I just unable to tell. Many people say I am paranoid. But what they does not know is I knew my condition well. Dot ask me how, dot ask me what happened. All I could say is, if you cant find me, please do not be worried. I may be angel surrounding you somewhere, someplace.

Jie, I am sorry if I ever hurt you or make you worried. I wish I never did those things but I had already done it. Not once, not twice, but always. It made me sit down and think, should I leave you. Will you still be happy if I am not around? Maybe you would never saw this blog, maybe you did. I just wanted to say, I am SORRY. Hope that what ever I did later or future, you will not blame me. I know I promise I wont, but I cant predict future. Some promise I wish to keep but at times it is beyond my control. Maybe if I ever found the courage, I will tell you when time ripes. Or maybe you are not even willing to hear the truth. Whatever it is, all I wanted is you to be happy.