Blogs For August 2006

Great News(16 August 2006)
What I had been waiting for is finally here.... Guess what??? Starting from 21st August, I will be converted to one year contract. If my performance are good..... I will then further convert to permanent.... Hehe...
Well, the best thing is.... My pay is higher than what I expected... :P.... Sooooooo HAPPY.....
Some might think, why start from next monday leh??? Actually is from 15 August de.... But today till Friday I am on leave... Will only be back next Monday... So....
Anyway, I got the news only on 14 August as I happened to read the email my manager sent to Lili... Unsure what I will be doing without an email account but have a place, so I went to ask my manager what she want me to do... She was suprised that HR did not call me... Than she open the email that HR sent to her and she showed me the content. I was supposed to meet Huiwen at 5.20pm... Than she tell me the terms for contract lo... Well, I was entitled 14 days annual leave, $10 medical claim....
So I went to HR at around 5pm. I filled up the form, than Huiwen told me the same thing that my manager said... Well, my colleague told me that the $10 is actually from my pay... Which means if u got $1150, your actual pay is $1140.... Anyway, I don bother as I would never claim... haha...
Than after the interview, she ask me to do the IQ test and typing test.... After doing all this, I left lo.. But not long after, got a call from Tina(HR staff) to ask me come back for my 15mins IQ test as the one I did was not captured... So I went back... You know what??? I done it within 15mins and all of them was shocked... Actually it was all stupid IQ questions. Anyway, I also don know how to get the answer... Then they thought I done it before... haha... Ok la... So everything ended. Thought 15 August will sign contract but she ask for all my supporting docs and original certs for verification and photocopy of NIRC and a passport size pic... haha.. She told me to come back for signing the contract on 21 instead... Ok le... End here... Take care and smilez...

Views on LOVE(5 August 2006)
Well, if really want me to pen down my views on LOVE, I would say the below:
Love is a strange illness. Once you had it, it will made you sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes angry, sometimes hurt. Mutual trust is essential to keep a relationship prolong. Some people may chose to share their woes with their another half. But I would chose to keep to myself. It is not that I dont trust him or I dont treat him as my boyfriend/hubby. It is just that I do not wish to add sorrows to him. Furthermore, if he also unable to think of a solution, it will add to his worries, which is what I do not wish to happen.
I do believe fairy tales in reality. I do hope to find my prince. I know it cant be rushed, but just hate to be alone...
Finding someone who loves u and u loves him/her is very difficult but is not impossible. I am trying hard to find one. Though in the past had many puppy loves, it is also part of my growing up and learning what is LOVE.
Hence my final conclusion for now is: To LOVE is easy, to be LOVE is fortunate. To have someone who is always there when you need is also essential. LOVE is building with mutual trust. If no trust presence in LOVE, a relationship cant prolong. Cherish when you have the chance before it is too late as you never able to predict future. Though at times will have some arguements, but do remember, never to say hurting words in anger as it may lead to regrets for life. For those who is still single like me, please do not be desperate for LOVE. As it may turns out to be somethings that is unexpected. I always believe, if you like the person, be his or her friend first, take things step by step, till you are sure he or she is your true LOVE, then you tell him/her your feelings.For those who had just ended a relationship, don be sad(though sounds easy but is the most difficult task). Look at the bright side. It is he/she who did cherish you, no use of crying for him/her. You have to show him/her, without him/her, life is still fulfilling. Made him/her regret, but DO NOT go back to him/her. As what broken is never able to mend. Just like a glass that is broken, no matter how you glue it, cracks are obvious.May all have happy ending just like fairy tales.... :P

Dream Chasers(5th August 2006)
After watching this show, I had some thoughts and views on love. I envy Lynn. As she had two guys who loves her so much(AJ and Steven). Though in the end she dies when AJ went to Japan to pursue his designer course, but she had a wonderful love life.
I ever thought if I were patient of incurable illness, would I be as strong as Lynn? But one thing is for sure, I would never tell my boyfriend anything. If I were left with months, I would chose to leave him. I would made him leave me, disappeared from his world and depart quietly.. May think I am foolish, but I don wan him to be sad. I rather he hate me than to feel sad for my departure.
Once again, I don pin hope now for any guys who will fall in love with me. As I consider myself as ugly and fat... :(

Updates as at 040806
Today, Eshal did not ask B to tell me how to clear her email and I also no need to clear her email. Eshal say, she will ask her to clear what is pending till 15 August. Emailed was sent to Beehoon, Giok Choon and Koh, informed them that from 15 August, I will be replacing Siew Giok and she will be post to scanning unit. Which means, I am able to convert to contract one year, thereafter permanent.
I was happy as it was so wonderfully done... Now till 15 August, there are 5 working days exclude Monday(7/8/06) as I on leave... So happy but at the same time very scare....
Today, I also shift my things to a place where no one was sitting as the new temp was very itchy hands and also childish. I scare he will mess my things and spoil it... Anyway, soon I will move house and had a permanent seat and a pc and also a phone.... Looks like soon had to buy one hello kitty phone haha... Hope that things will get better once I convert...
Oh yes, I will also start looking for courses to upgrade myself.... Hehe... Plan to take up Diploma in Finance Services. But Lili say should take up useful course... Well, I really don know what she meant by useful course... Anyway, think she will also leave 6months from now as she kept telling everyone she is leaving as her maid wanna further studies la, this and that... Haha... Anyway, hope that if she does leave me, Huihui can work with me as a team. Just hope so soon she is able to convert to perm or go to the dept that she want....
All the best to everyone who is reading my blog and Jia you.... :P

Updates as at 030806
Today can be consider as my happy and sad day... Why???
Happy is cos: I finally had enough courage to approach Eshal to ask when can I start my new task. She said very frankly, she will only able to offer me a 1 year contract and then full time(Perm). She ask me will I accept. Of cos I would as this is what I wish for... Hence she say the earliest she can convert is on 15 August. Though seems far but just few days later... Isn't this great???
Sad is cos: I did something wrong. As some may knew what happened. The story begins when she had a meeting with me and my two colleagues. Lets call them A and B. As agreed, I will learn from A and will clear B's emails when B is learning new things as B wanted to try that new task. B also agreed to let me use B's code and system to enable me to clear B's email. But after the meeting, it was totally different story. B not only did not let me use her code(when B left B's desk, B log out all the system only left B's email on), B also did not tell me how should I go about clearing. Hoping that the next morning B will ask me how far have I done, but B did not. B just kept quiet and continue B's job. When B is working on B's new task, B does not want any interruption, including when the case was so urgent that must clear asap, but B did not care. When ask B to expedite, B scream so loud that almost all the colleagues heard that. B even tell me to tell those who called that B is busy, not around to avoid clearing cases.Logically, I should feedback to Eshal. But I did not as I thought things will get better. Also, I had never encountered this before. Can say I am naive or stupid. But I just kept mum... Till today when Eshal asked me, then she realised what she had missed. She say she was little disappointed. But did not blame me as I am still new to the things and the people there. I really regret for not telling it out early. Though Eshal say she will have one last meeting for me and B, but I still feel bad if cos of this, B will lose her place in work. Haiz... Feel so bad... What should I do in future???? Will it affect my conversion???? :(