Blogs For December 2006

Happy New Year.... Welcome 2007(31 December 2006)
Hi All
Had been waiting for my updates right? haha... Thick skin hor... Though I know not many people will read my blog la... Hehe..
Updates for those who is reading it now... From 01/01/2007, I will be permanent staff in Income... Cheers... Thanks to Eshal, my manager... Hehe.. Had signed the contract at HR(forgotten the date le). Well, some had already knew beforehand. Some now then know from my blog...
Well, really have to work very hard next year as got forced banding... Will strive to reach band A... Hehe..
Any resolution for next year??? Have of course... Firstly is to save money for my studies in April/May 2007. Course is Diploma In Management Accounting And Finance. Gonna be tough time but will strive to get it done as per planned....
Another plan is to find my Mr Right.. Though need cupid's help but think will be soon... Haha... This is not a must but just a hope.
Lastly is that hope my pink of health will be back soon. These days had been sick and not really strong in the immune system... Dot worry, will make myself strong from now on... Think also plan to lose some weight la... Not much la... Jus some only.. haha...
I hereby wish all of you a Happy 2007 ahead and this will be my last blog for Year 2006. This year is a sad year for me. Hence hope 2007 will be a happy and prosper year for me. May all the wishes will come true soon....
Start dreamin.... :P

Cheers and Best Regards
Elaine Seah
Data Entry, Records Management
Office Service Department
NTUC Income
Cooperative : Your Partner For A Better Life
DID/Fax : 68773474

HAPPY NEW YEAR.... :)

What He Does Not Know(6 December 2006)
Knowing him was when I step into Secondary School. We were loggerheads. Almost everyday we will have things to tease each other. I was always the losing one. Not long after, he began missed classes and soon he left school. We had lost touch and life carries on as per normal. Till one day in June holiday, he left me a voicemail and asked me to call him back. On hearing the voicemail, I was shocked at the same time happy. When he say he like me thru the phone and wanna me to be his girlfriend. I agreed as I also like him since the very first day we quarrelled.
Days with him was really enjoying and memorable. I felt that I am the world's most fortunate gal. He pampered me with lots of love and bear with my childish and stubborness. He worried when I am sick. Almost wanted to come to my house and nurse me when he learnt that I am sick. But cos my house rules very strict and that time I am only Sec 1, too young to have boyfriend, so he can never come to my house.
I still remember once, I was so angry that he smoked in front of me. I took his pack of cigerette and threw it to the bin and left. He did not chased me. Maybe he is also angry. But after that he called me and we are ok again. I did not regret doing that but I just wanted to change him. Now I know, no matter what, I cant change anyone or anything.
I still remember another time, I so miss him till I pleaded my friend, Siok Ling to accompany me to Boys' Town to visit him. Though I know the rules only allowed his family to visit him but I really miss him. So I persuaded Siok Ling to bring me there... When we reached there, I went to office and asked the staff if I can see him. The staff at first say only his family is allowed to see him. But since I came, then he let me see him for a while...
When he saw me, he was shocked and say I am very foolish. Though only a while, but at least can see him. Knowing he is fine, I am really happy and contented. I really cherish the days we had together. I also knew that he put friends in the first place and I am in the second place. But I don't mind. We do have arguements and we had breakups and patches back more than once. Each time is I say break and he ask for patched up. Our love life ended in 2000 when I was preparing for my N level. This time is he the one who say breakup. It was really tough time without him. If not for friends' encouragement and help. I would not have walk out of the misery. But I really love him.
This feeling of loving him deeply aroused when he sms me that day and asking for patched up one last time. We agree to meet that day and eventually we did meet up. He is still that loving and really felt fortunate to be his galfriend. But on the second day's midnight (051206), he sms me again saying that it is better we are not couple. The reason he gave the day after when I demanded it is we are of different world. I really don't know what went wrong and what have I done wrong. It all just ended like that. I really want to tell him. He is the only one I never regret loving and he is the one I can feel love is in the air. He is the one who pampers me unconditionally. He is the one who knows me very very well. I really hope if there is next life, we can be couple at that time and never leave each other. I will never forget the times we had together. It will be in my heart forever till the day I die. Hope that he can be able to find his happiness. Maybe I am really not his Miss Right. Really sad that we ended like this. But no choice and have to accept.
If he ever read this blog and this entry, I want to tell him this: You know who you are. I am really hurt when you sent that sms. But now I am not blaming anyone. Since it is god's will that we should not be together, I will accept. But I really wanna tell you, I never regret knowing you and loving you. I thank god for giving us a chance to love. I know that time I must have hurt you deep. I really regret doing that. But hurting you is also hurting me and even more hurting than you. Saying break isn't easy. You did not see my tears when I say breakup. When the last time you said that, I felt the hurt that you had been thru but this time is even more hurting. Heart bleeds but soon will heal. Without you, I really have to be strong. I will and will be even stronger. I also hope that without me, you can find a better one. She will loves you, cherish you like I did before. Hope that she will never did anything that inflicts hurt to you like what I did in the past. I will let go because I love you and want you to be happy. Sorry for that day's message. But that was how I felt that day. Anyway, thanks for the love you gave and sorry for hurting you so deep. Hope you can take care and hope that we can still be friends. Though I know it is impossible but I really hope that we can make it.

Updates As At 5th December 2006
Hello everyone who is reading this blog constantly. Here is my updates of what is happening these days...
1st December 2006
Today is a day of meeting up with Yuhui and Weiping for the first time after four years of graduation from Secondary School. Though most of the time I will be able to see Weiping. But we did not meet up for window shopping and catching up with what we are doing nowadays. Our venue is PS(Plaza Singapura). Why? Cos it is near the workplace of Weiping and Myself... So Yuhui had to accommodate us... Hehe... I arrived first and meeting Weiping outside Bodyshop. While waiting for our pretty Yuhui, I met Jiayu and Gina. They are eager to see who I am with that time. But disappointed them when Weiping came... Haha...Then I decided to trick Yuhui as she came later. Initially wanted her to treat dinner, but Weiping say don wan to bully her. So we are her to treat drinks. Then she suggested we eat at Cafe Calter(Don know the correct spelling). Then we teased her by saying, since she suggested go there, she will foot the bill. Of cos in the end, she only treat us drinks la... But the service there I would rate 4/10. Why?? Not cos the food not nice but the serving timing was mess up. I was last one who received the order. By the time I received, they almost finished their meals le. Anyway, overall the waiter was not bad.After meals we decided to take neoprints.... As it is the first try for neoprints after so many years, we asked Yuhui to select as she had tried before. After taking, we are allowed to design.. After all that was done, we print it and distributed to each one a copy. Since the neoprint was small, we ask Yuhui to help in scanning it in and send to our emails. So once received will post in friendster and let you all see our masterpiece.
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4th December 2006
Today is the first day of my one week long leave. Since nothing to do, I ask Eshal whether she can lunch with me. She say ok and we meeting at SMU's Killeney Cafe at 12pm. Then I suddenly wish to find something. So I sms Huihui and ask her to bring down the file for me and I search for the letter. But could not find it. Then bid good bye as she need to go back to work. Then I plan to visit the National Library. While walking, I saw the security guards. So I went over to chit chat with them. By the time we finished chit chat, it is already almost 11am... So I decided to walk to SMU first and eat my half boiled eggs...When time strikes 12plus, Eshal came. We ordered food and chit chat as usual. Then she ask me why I took leave. Jokingly I say because wanna clear leave. She also joked back saying if that is the case, she will withdraw the balance leave I applied. Then I told her the truth.... I NEED A SHORT BREAK.... Haha... Cos as you had read previously, I was left alone for more than one week. Had been clearing tons of emails and really very tired... So.... Haha... Than after we finished our lunch, she went back to work... I was left alone... Anyway, it is my choice for taking this long leave.. Cant blame anyone...
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5th December 2006
Today nothing much to write. Day started when I met Huihui for lunch. Then we gossip here and there... Finally had our own time lunching together without any company... After lunch, we go to Bugis as she is look for card holder for her bf... In the end we found it at The Wallet Shop... By the time she decided for the card holder, it was already 1.15pm... She is late for work... But luckily BH is not back yet... Hehe... Then I take bus to Sengkang-Rivervale Mall. Why?? Cos I passing present to my cousin who's bday is yesterday. Kinda last min shopping, hope he dot mind... Haha.. After meeting him, I took bus back to AMK and suddenly decided to drop by Library and here I post this updates... :P That ends the Day 2 of my leave for five days... Look out for the next updates soon... :P