Blogs For July 2007

Finally Body Signals Me To Rest :( 30 July 2007
26 July 2007
Today was a normal Thursday. As usual report to work at 8:30am... But was something different in the late evening. My cough became worst till I vomitted. Haiz.... Finally my body say, :"Hey! It's time you went to see doctor again to cure it right now."

So after doing my OT, I went home with my colleague. Then I visited the family clinic. When I reached there, there are already a lot of patients waiting. My number is 11 and the patient inside the room was only number 4.... No choice, have to wait... Finally it was me le, then the doctor asked me what happened. Than I told her that I had flu since 6 July and flu changed to cough at 16 July till now it had worsen to cough till I vomitted.

So she told me, tomorrow you better rest at home and no work for you. She also say I had very high blood pressure but was unsure was it due to that I was sick and having fever. So she asked me to come back three weeks later to test blood pressure again. Haiz... The reason why she so concerned is because, both my parents are diabetes patients. Hence, I got a higher chances getting it too. What to do??? That is what a good doctor should be concern.

After paying $29, I left home with four packets of sweets(Tablets) and one bottle of Strawberry(Cough Medicine). Haiz... Poor me.. When will I be able to be back to healthy again????

27 July 2007
As instructed, I had to applied MC today. Coincidencely, my manager was also on one day MC.... Maybe due to me, she got the virus.... But today cant rest wor.... I got work to do....

Was scolded by my colleague for not listening to advise to rest.... But what to do... I promise to finish them by today. Who knows I am sick today.

I spent the whole morning till late evening to finish all the tasks. At the same time, I helped the new data staff in her pending cases...

Haiz... In the morning was raining cats and dogs.... Cant go out buy breakfast. Was complaining to my best friend Weiping... In the end, took one cup noodle to settle my breakfast as I need to eat my medicine... Haiz... Poor me.... :(

Then wait till around 5plus, my mum came back and she asked me what I wanted to eat. Thinking very long never eat Kaya Bread... So ask her buy one for me. In the end, she bought the four in one packet kaya bread.. As I was hungry, I ate all.... Then proceed for my second intake of medicines.. The antibiotics taste like vomit.... But no choice had to finish the course.... Sian ar...

Then I continue my work till 7plus then I finally finished all my tasks... But was already so late... Wanna take a nap also cant le... I was feeling very drowsy.... So I decided that tomorrow will be a pure rest day with no work.... :)

28 July 2007
Today wake up feeling very blurred.... Maybe due to the medicines ba... Hence today very guai... Rested the whole day after doing my normal Saturday chores....

Drowsy... Haiz... Hope by today I will recover fully... Miss my work and my work desk... Miss my colleagues and miss my food on the desk... haha...

30 July 2007
Actually had been suffering from diarrhea since Saturday. But thought was not serious. It is indeed serious. Why??? What I ate, will become diarrhea in the end.... Haiz....
Even though I took the chinese medicine to stop the diarrhea, but I cant stop the stomach pain. Hence no choice, I sms to my manager and my colleague, Lili that I will be on MC today. Will be back tomorrow.

Guess what, I heard from my colleague, one of the colleague, who acts like she is very big, shouted very loud early in the morning:"Next time she on leave or MC, please tell her to report to manager!"

Wa lao eh.... I already sms to her early in the morning at around 7plus leh... She still say I didnt sms her. Then I send her again at 9plus, guess what? She scolded me and say NEXT TIME PLEASE INFORM EARLY....

Wat The Fish!!! I am not reporting to her at all ever since I am converted to contract. As my job scope is not handled by her... Just inform her out of courtesy, yet this is what I got in the end... Well, decided next time I WILL NOT EVEN SMS HER to INFORM HER LIAO....

Wasted my two smses for this stupid people. Anyway, I only need to let my manager and my work buddy know only ma... She is extra de... Haha..

Well, today feels much better after medication... So tomorrow will be back to office... Miss colleagues(except those idiots), miss my work desk, miss my food on my work desk... haha...
Most importantly, I miss my MANGOs.... Hehe...

Hope my stomach pain will be gone, my cough will be gone and my diarrhea will be gone and all leave me forever... Haha... No more medicines... No more doctors.... :)

Work Dilemma(Analaysis Problems)-21 July 2007
Thanks to those golden advise. Had sit down and rethink. Well, here is what I got after thinking.
Indeed, T is inconsistant in her rules and regulations. But I really can't blame her. She was forced to trained all staffs in my dept. If it was me, I bet I would do the same. Nevertheless, H is really overbroad. But I can't because of her ruin my project. As ultimately I am the project co-ordinator.

T's intention is to let all staffs in OS(Office Service Dept) to learn how to data. Actually, it will benefit the person who is doing scanning. Why? Cos when he/she learnt how to data, will also know what are the problems encountered when infor in the proposal form was missing. From there, they are able to alert us before they scanned in the proposal to the system when there is missing infor or unclear infor.

Actually, R was also Team 1 members. I should teach her one. But just that I don't wish they abuse the meaning of doing OverTime. I can teach R in office when she is available. I am also willing to help those who need my help. But I am not happy with H abusing her authority.
As for L, I guess T was unable to reject teaching her that day. As it will cause two consequences if she did that. It will cause H to lose face in front of us and demoralized L. Anyway, eventually all will get to learn how to data LUV. But only Team 1 will be equipped with data Life Insurance proposals and LUV proposals. Team 2 will only concentrate on scanning of LUV and LI proposals.

I guess, I shouldn't take it so hard. Should be willing if there is another person helping me. But I would hope to be the sole in-charge. Just want to see whether I can handle task myself. Just like my shifu, who handles so well in Incomeshield data entry.

Of cos, I need to know all of them la. I had already mastered almost all the products type for Life Insurance and knew how to data Incomeshield. Was quite fast when data LUV proposals. But as what T had mentioned in yesterday's mini meeting with Shifu and me, "NO ONE CAN WIN ME AS I AM TAKING IN NEW THINGS BEFORE THEM." So we must be willing to teach the rest so that we can absorbed new things.

T predicts that sooner or later, there will be new policies coming up, Once again, my data team needs to expand... Haha... Who is interested, just let me know and I will take note. When needed new team will think of you all. Take care folks and thanks once again for all the encouragement, golden ideals. Special thanks to those who are there when I venting my unhappiness.... Haha.. Adding more burdens to you all, I am sorry....

I must thank god that I had a group of lovely colleagues... Thanks all of you all.... Love you guys and do continue to view my blogs and leave any comments that you feel like posting. Be it good or bad, I will accept all...

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Work Dilemma-17 July 2007
Those who work with me will know what had happened. I was very very confused and demoralized now. Work doesn't seem to be smooth sailing. I met lots and lots of obsticles and lots and lots of inconsistant guidelines to follow.

It all started when my manager(T) assigned me a new project to learn. T made it clear to me that she is only training Team 1 people for this new project.

Initially was smooth. I was assigned to teach them. Things happened. As I was sick for fourth days already, could not really conducted a proper lesson. But as I was only a junior clerk, all I could do is to listen to the third highest person(H)'s instruction. Left with no choice, a last minute data lesson was forced to conduct.

I was given one hour to prepare all the materials for lesson teaching. Everything went haywired and the notes I given was all in a mess. I did a short presentation as I was not 100% understand the product and how to data.

What I can tell them is only very basic data entry rules and regulations. After thinking when at home, I regretted giving them those notes and decided to go to office a bit early to re-prepare a more detailed notes so that they are able to learn from the screen shots printed.

After doing, I passed to T and she said she will go thru and see whether she is able to used them later. Which means she is going to reconduct the lesson once again for Team 1(only some of Team 1 retrained again). So she called for the meeting half and hour later.

There came another suprise, initially, T was very firm to say that L(one of Team 2 staff) was not included for data entry. But H brought her in and she was equiped with data knowledge, I was very upset when I saw this. Upset is because, T is not firm enough with her rules.

After the lesson, I was to guide them along when they encounter problems while T went for meeting after teaching. Everything went smooth till suddenly, those not supposed to data was doing data. Then I tried to feedback to T and came this reply: Only those who trained are to do data entry. But to what I know only some of us. Out of sudden, more people are doing data. Things getting a bit out of hand as there is no control at this point already.

When I feedback again to confirm who to do data and told T that those not supposed to do data are doing now. Then came this reply: Any problem with this? Tongue tied, I did not know what to react. All I could say is, mind not functioning after taken a lot of medicine.

Things got even out of hand when it came to OT on Saturday. R who was not supposed to appear in office came as H told her to come and claim OT. Dot learn during office hour. When R came, she put her things and came next to me, pulled a chair and said: H asked me to come and learn from you how to data.... OMG... Thought T made it clear that she will teach the rest ma?? Why I need to teach a newbies again???

As there is no instruction given to me by T that I need to conduct any lesson, I told R blurntly, I am not doing data entry now. R no choice went back to her seat and sit there doing nothing for an hour till H came. I feedback to T, there came a maddening sms reply,: Since she is at work, teach her lo.... WTFish.... Why me??? In the first place, R should not have come at all. Is not that I dot wan to teach people. But wasnt T made it cleared that she will teach the rest later? That was what I was told, I dot see why need to conduct a lesson just because she came. What if the rest came and must I teach them all? What nonsense is this???

Was really fed up with the situation I am in. I dot know why T became so inconsistant and tends to change her rules when H take things at her own hands?? What had happened? It's driving me crazy soon. What should I do??? There will be more and more this nonsense appearing. How to bring my mind in peace? Haiz.... Fan ar.... Sad ar... Who tell I am just a small clerk where H is special grade clerk, much higher post than me!!! What can I say when she instructed me to do this do that, even if I am not ready also must do!!! FED UP AR!!!! Just venting my anger here as there is no place to vent anger at.. Really very demoralized. Thought I am the one who second decisions made but ended up being the follower of another rules made. This is not the first time I was caught in between. When wanted to follow T's instruction and be firm to H. But in the end, when I say NO, H will still get a YES. What's the use of following T's instruction when T is not even firm in any rules made? She kept wanting us to be on the same mindset as the management. But when the management herself not consistant, how can we as the surbordinates have the same mindset when there is no standard mindset at all???? Who can teach me how???

What Really Went Wrong???-17 July 2007
Couldn't think of what title to put for this blog... Suddenly feel that I shouldnt be interfering. I know I am wrong in some ways.

Too many secrets hiding from her... If I said that earlier, all the misunderstanding would have been cleared. The situation wont be like this.

It all started in year 1999. We met in a workplace. Let's name Party A, B and C... Party A and Party B were colleagues and close work buddy and also close friends. Party A and Party B knows each other very well. Then came Party C, who is special to Party A. Not long later Party C was also special to Party B

All was very happy till one day, somethings happened which involves another person, Party D. Everyone mistaken Party D and Party C as none of them explained the truth. Rumours spread and everyone came to learn Party C and D's matter. Party A heard it but was all in the wrong version. When Party A asked Party C, Party C avoid answering. When Party A asked Party D, Party D did not wish to further explained. Only recently, the truth revealed when Party D cleared the misunderstanding.

Initially thought finally problems had solved, but that was not the case. Party A was not happy. Not cos of this incident but was cos for 7 years, Party C did not celebrate any of her birthdays. Although there was genuine reasons behind for four occasions, but Party A finds it hard to accept the other reasons which is way too difficult to accept.

There came another situation which is Party B's fault. Party B should have informed Party A earlier of Party E's exist. But what Party B did not expect is, Party A would met Party E. Though Party A was taken aback, but she act normal in front of Party C. After that Party B tried to explain to Party A, but it was too late. No one would understand how Party A felt. Party C's changes was too much for Party A to bear. Party B was guilty for not able to minimize the pain for Party A. But what's done cant be undone. All Party B could say to Party A is Sorry.
All Party B could do now is to ask Party A to forgive Party C. But was in a dilemma as to how to broke the news to Party C. As Party B knows that we should not look back and hold onto those unhappy memories. Party B also know that Party C will have her reasons for all the actions. But whether Party A and C will be as close as the past, no one knows except they themselves. Party B, being in between them, only wish that one day, they can sit down and talk things out. As eventually, the one who can help in this situation is they themselves.

But there is also a worried in this, what if it turns out to be Party A was forced to give up Party C? Party A would sure heartbroken and Party C will also hurt. What should Party B do? Sit there and do nothing? Or trying to help in any ways which Party B is able to?

Being so long relationship with Party A and Party C, Party B really wish to see that things are like in the past. All are happy together again.

Party B is really very sad if the end results is not happy ending. Party B knows that Party B is in no position to comment anything as Party B did not know what Party C is thinking although Party B and C seems very close. Party A is tired of being the one who give in. On seeing such a long relationship to be given up is a pity. Party B really hopes that the person who read this blog knows what Party B is hinting. Hope that sunshine really comes after the rain.

PS: If you do not understand this blog, means you are not the person involved in this blog. It is meant for the person who is involved to get this message in. Losing someone you cared is very hurting. If you do not voice out how much you care for the person, that person will never know how much you care for him/her. Relationship will end due to stubborness and proactive move. Many relationship ended is due to lack of communication. Only Party A and Party B are able to help in salvage this mess and only they can untie the knots in their hearts. Hope everything is ok soon.

Days Without Mangos(Sick Week)-14 July 2007
09 July 2007(Blue Blue Saturday)
Terrible was used to described TODAY... OMG... Had been scaring myself that I am not a human as I very long never sick le.... Finally, flu virus had located me and invaded my body... I was sneezing whole of Saturday... Thinking that it will end when I took 2 tablets of CLARINOSE... It did stopped the sneezing but did not stopped the running nose... Feeling so sick, work still have to be done... Haiz... Never mind... Spent one hour clearing my work.. Then it is dinner time... Ate dinner and then took 2 more CLARINOSE tablets and went to sleep...

11 July 2007(Super Quiet Elaine Day-Monday Blue Lots)
Thought flu virus had left me after one day rest(although still went out to visit my grandmother). To my dismay, I had blocked nose the whole day... As my colleague was on leave till Friday than come back. No choice and since not that serious, I went to work as usual... Before reaching, I smsed to all my lunch kakis to tell them to leave me a distance if their immune system was not so good as I am still flu virus carrier... Haiz... (Was super quiet the whole day)...

Sad to say, they(my lunch kakis) forbided me to eat or drink mango as it was heaty... OMG.. No mangos for today!!! Haiz... Can die man... But in the end, still survive... Hoping that tomorrow will recover... Very obediently, I followed the instruction, to take 2 tablets of CLARINOSE twice a day.

I took one after eating my breakfast...When reached home, I took 3 tablets of CLARINOSE, thinking eat one more won't die la... Things happened the next day...

12 July 2007(Drowsy Tuesday)
As a results of overdose of 1 tablet from last night(though it doesnt sound serious), but there is a side effect for overdose even 1 tablet. As written on the medicine box, it doesnt cause drowsiness.... Drowsiness will occurs if you try what I tried. The whole day to me was like a dream...

Tried to stay forcused but unable to... Then at around 10plus, Eshal called for a short meeting... OMG.. Already feeling drowsy liao still got meeting to attend... Haiz...

To be frank, at first I did heard what she was talking. Come to the second part of the meeting, my mind was going wild... Could not forcused and also could not get what she was trying to say... WTFish.... Haiz... So when she asked me:"Will you accept this image?" I was stunned and did not know what to say... I heard of that before yesterday as they had a heated disagreement over ticking.... Actually was a super small matter but due to need to follow guideline, none of them could came to an agreement. Finally, after Eshal's instruction, it was finalized. Though I know the answer should be, ACCEPT THE IMAGE. As I was not really doing scanning job, I did not answer. Luckily Eshal let me off by say:"Oh... You very long never do scanning, forgotten liao ar. Never mind"... If not hor, I also dot know what to reply ar...

Very sian hor... Due to small matter, there is a heated debate... Haiz... That was office life... :(

Finally, the conclusion was, to accept when there is at least a ticked on the proposal numbers. No need to argue that ticked at the top of the paper, contents never ticked, reviewer are to accept or reject image scanned. In my point of view, ticked or no ticked is really fine lo... What Eshal say was very true... Ten years down the road, do you still remember why you ticked that proposal number or numbers? So she say, even if no ticked, I typed in the proposal number(s), the correct image showed up, she was fine with that.(very true)... The funniest part was, when she said, I do not employed you all to do the ticking hor... Haha... Funny hor.... Whatever...Drowsy ar... Shen Ar Jiu Jiu Wo Ar....Really could not concentrate ar... But cant go home... Thinking after lunch might feel better.... Who knows after lunch still drowsy feeling... OMG...

On the way home, I told Huiz... She say why never tell her earlier, if not she would tell me to drink pure lime juice as that would cured drowsiness.... WTFish... Haiz... Anyway, going home time... So never mind anymore le... Hopefully tomorrow will be fine liao.... But I was totally wrong... :(

13 July 2007(Not So Well-Wednesday)
Tough blocked nose was cured, but I still doesnt feel well... Today started to be a bit talkative, but the drowsiness was still haunting me... Haiz... At least able to concentrate a bit la... Did not tell anyone... As lunch time went over, hoping that drowsiness will subsided.... Sad to say it didn't... Haiz... Another sick day today... Had been forbidded to eat or drink mango since Monday le... Today still could not get to taste even a bit of mango... So sad... More blues when drowsiness still haunting me... But they said I sounded better today... Better than Monday and Tuesday... Is it a sign of recovering??? Sad to say, was YES initially but....

14 July 2007(A Bit Ok-Thursday)
Sad to say, though flu and blocked nose left me, I am still a flu virus carrier... Why??? Cos flu and blocked nose had turned into cough... OMG... Terrible cough.... Initially was ok... Then was asked to teach the rest how to data new product... There is two session each took about an hour or so.. Haiz... Sick still have to teach... Who to pity me?? Sob..Sob...Its ok... Finally everything settled at around 4plus... By that time, my emails piled up and already felt very sick le, cough getting worst liao... No mood to even clear those pending emails...

I itchy mouth, went to drink a cup of COKE, thinking that nothing serious will happened... That was a killer... My cough worsen after work.... Cough till I hardly breathe...

Since it was so serious.... I finally went to Clifford Family Clinic to visit a doctor. Today was not the usual doctor who attended to me... It was a male doctor... He prescribed a bottle of cough mixture(as usual) plus a phlegm tablet. All this plus consultation fee cost me $19... Haiz... No choice... Luckily, can claim medical fee ar... But will only be back to my pay end of this month...(Sob...Sob...)

Was very obedient again this time, follow the instruction and took the cough mixture and the medicine for phlegm and went to bed straight... Had split headache also... Hence took 2 tablets of PANADOL EXTRA... Thinking, tomorrow will sure recovered... :(

15 July 2007(Its FRIDAY-But No Mood)
Today was awaken by cough and last night didnt sleep well either... Woke up as early as 6am... Never woke up that early before in the days of my working days... Haiz...Anyway, suddenly thinking, I need to go to workplace early a bit to reprint the screen shots as yesterday's lesson was haywired(last min ask me teach of cos haywired la)... So I reached office a bit early la... Think around 8:20am ba... Hehe... Then went to do the screen shots.. Greeted my colleagues and then concentrating doing the screen shots...Finally had came out an updated and full detailed teaching guide... So I went to Eshal's desk and handed that copy and explained why I redo. She say she will go thru and then will conduct a lesson later... So happy that my hard work was paid off... Though I am still very sick...

After the small lesson, I felt super sick... But hang on thinking, after taking the medicine, I will feel better.... To my dismay, it is getting worst... From bad to worst...

The medicine not only did not help to cure my cough, it does not cause me drowsiness though it was supposed to be drowsiness medicine, it made me almost no voice to talk... I looked even more pale... OMG... Luckily today lunch is in office... No need to go out.. I ask my colleague to buy hebal tea for me..

She bought the hebal tea and also a cough sweet for me... That sweet was a bit effective, it did minimized the number of times I am coughing, but did not really cure me... Huiz suggested that I buy the syrup... I walked around AMK Hub, to NTUC Fairprice, to Unity, finally spotted the syrup... But it cost $9plus... OMG... Hence I did not buy... Searching and searching, finally found the sweets in 7-11 which cost $2.10 each bar... I also saw that syrup but was also $9plus... Hence I did not buy... Thinking, sweet is more than enough liao... So went to pay and went home to rest...Was so sleepy today... I dozed off after finishing my household chores..... Hope today will have a good nite sleep as tomorrow got OT to do...(suppose to be data entry support team) Haiz...

16 July 2007(Not So Good Saturday)
It had been 8th days after I kana the flu virus... Today was a bit better.. Cough had lessen... But still not fully cured... Haiz... 8th days no mango to drink and eat... So sad.... Today went to work(OT) at 8:30am... Start the pc and guiding those new data staff.... Was less tiring as their problems are not so much... Though a lot of cases pending in my account... But will solved on Monday(hopefully)...

After work at 2plus pm, I took Bus 14, thinking can change bus home from Bedok MRT station. Halfway thru, I alighted and changed to Bus 10 to go Tampines as I missed my ex-colleague from KFC and my god-sister whom I haven seen for weeks... created a suprise visit for my god-sister.. She was indeed suprises... Haha.. That was my purpose of visiting... :)

Then I went down to my ex-workplace... Saw one of my ex-colleagues who is still working there.... She told me, they short of manpower... I told her no choice as i really cant help out..

Then smsed Shukrie to ask if he can spared few mins for chit chatting... He agreed and we did chat for 10 mins.... Hehe... Great to see them again... But miss Sister Edel very much... Smsed her several times but no reply... Wondering how is she... Anyway, I am happy today as I get to visit my ex-colleagues... Also get to see my god-sister.... My health is getting better.... Hopefully will fully recovered by tonight after trying the new medicine which my mom say is efficient... Pray hard it will cured me fully...

Shall end here.... Will update when I am free... Take care all and may good health surrounds you everyday. :P

Lots Of Love
Elaine