弦歌寄意 3rd Feb Wed 2010

XiaoElaineJingDiWaCryBaby said...

Yoz Ivy Jie

Today my feeling is sad de. Last week Wednesday 27 January 2010 4am, I lost my grandmother, my mum lost her mum. She left us peacefully. I know I have to let go.

Today is her first 7th day. 7 days after she left us. The grieveness is there. I can never forget her smile, her soups, her handmade clothes to all her grandchildren.

Ever since she had stroke and lost almost all her senses, we were very heartbroken.

Time and again, I wish she will not suffer anymore. But whenever I thought of this day will be nearing, I cannot let go.

I ever asked myself, what will it be when she left us. Although we did not live under on roof. But ever Sunday was a day I am looking forward each day as I can get to see her. Even if she cannot hear us, see us. But I know she can feel us.

Now that she left us. 4days before my birthday. I guess she wish to end our suffering also. She knew we do not wish she left us.

I just wish to let her know if she get to hear it. Wai Po, we love you. Do not worry for us. We will take care of ourselves. You also take care and hope you found Wai Gong after 23 years of seperation.

Thanks Jie for reading this. She was cremented on 29 January 2010. I cried when I saw her being pushed in. Hearbreaking but I have to be strong. If I cry, my mum will cry also. Hence I shall not shed any tears. I shall be strong. With all of you all's support and well wishes. I am doing fine.

Thanks to all who send condolence to me. I am fine. I just need time to adapt this reality. But I will be strong and take care of myself.

Lots of love
Elaine

Liang Wen Ying-Ku Guo Jiu Hao Le

January 31, 2010 4:11 PM