弦歌寄意 1st Feb Mon 2010

XiaoElaineJingDiWaCryBaby said...

Yoz Ivy Jie
Wonder will this be read out. Wanna thanks all of them who send me condolence be it in facebook or sms.

I know you all care for me. I also know I should not grieve that long.

But I cannot believe I just seen her on Sunday and she was gone on Wednesday. It was really a very unhappy bday present for me. I had to send her off. I also know she was released from all the sufferings and I have to walk out of this sadness soon and get back to my life.

Ren si bu neng fu shen. I know this meaning. But she was so dear to me. It is not a word to say do not be sad can erase all the sadness.

Friday, 29 January 2010 to me was a really struggle day. Morning I have to see her cremented. Evening I have to keep all the sadness and watch SCO as promise. It wasn't easy.

Thanks to Mary Jie, Liyi Jie, Jianmei, Wei Jie Jie, Evonne Jie, Steven, Joseph and Yvonne mei for all the condolence and support. Also to those who send regards to me be it in sms or facebook.

I know you all care for me. I will try and get back my life. But I really needed time.

At my 26th years of life, she left me to find Wai Gong. 23years ago, he left her all alone to take care of the whole family. Not easy, I know. She had been staying alive for our sake.

Now she was gone to a place no feeding tube, no oxygen tube and no more needles, no more medicines. No more pain. I have to let her go.

My only regrets was I never took photo with her when I was in teenage life. My only photo with her alone was when she was carrying me during my bday when I was very young.

I wish that she is happy now and met Wai Gong on her way.

Thanks all who had wish me Happy Birthday and wanted to celebrate for me. But due to this matter, I had to reject all of you all's request. Hope you all understand and hope you all do not angry.

I will make up next year.

Wai Po, Rest in Peace. I love you.

Lots of Love
Elaine

*Thanks Ivy Jie for reading. I guess you only get to know of this today when you read it ba. Sorry that I did not tell you early.

Song: Liang Wen Ying-Ku Guo Jiu Hao Le

January 31, 2010 4:26 PM