Wrapped Up January 2012 (2)

110112 (Wednesday)

Feeling slightly better today, again it was Business Statistics. This round, I tried my best to concentrate and slowly catching up. Hoping this way will chase my moody and shine some light for me to continue my studies.

But with the school laptop, I could not download anything, not even msn. How am I able to survive? Hopefully soon I will be able to get a replacement for my lappy. But of course, I wish I can have a new netbook as my own netbook was beyond repaired.

Right now, I do not even wish that person will even say sorry to me or even compensate me for the loss. I just wish I can get over this semester as I am only left few weeks more to end this semester.

I think the only challenge will be how am I to redo all the notes for the upcoming Understanding Tests. Anyway, tomorrow will be RDM UT2. I really do not know how am I to study when I lost all my precious notes.

120112 (Thursday)
Today is RDM UT2 at W65C. I doubt I can make it to achieve good results. Hence, I do not pinned hope that I will get B. Luckily, it will be open notes test where we can refer to 6Ps. Just pray that I am able to find answers from them and tide through this UT.

Before the start of UT, I approached Mr Lazzerine to discuss my laptop problem with him. He suggested that I write an email to Mr Ross to arrange a meet up with him at the same time brief him through what had happened.

Till this moment, I did not even mentioned his name. Am I being too soft hearted and let him off? I doubt so. It was due to, I knew even if said the whole story, I will never get any apologise nor any compensation. To him, it was just a small matter and he didn't even care.

As UT will be starting soon, I am unable to use internet to send email, I decided to use my iphone to send him an email. Mr Ross was fast and he agreed to meet me tomorrow during lunch time around 1pm plus.

Keeping my finger crossed that I am able to tide through till my replacement reach my hand. I am happy to have many friends and facilitators who are willing to lend a helping hand to me.

130112 (Friday)
Laptop problem have to be solved soon and I really hope by meeting my mentor, Mr Ross, I am able to ease some sorrow.

Thanks to Mr Ross who agreed to offer help for me to extend the loan of the laptop for me to tide through my remaining UTs. He is very friendly and approachable. I am fortunate to be his mentee. Although he say maybe need to pay for the extension but I am more than glad to know that I am able to extend the loan till I got my replacement laptop from YH where she got from her friend.

But first, I needed to forward him the loan laptop email so that he can email to the person in charge for extending the loan of laptop. The matter was solved fast and within minutes, I am able to extend the loan till end of this month. So I can have ample time to restore things in the replacement laptop and at the same time coping with my UTs.

At least right now, there are some lights shine to me. Thanks to various people, firstly will be Miss Tan where she lend a listening ear and advice me, next will be Mr Lazzerine who encourages me to move on and things will be solve soon, finally will be Mr Ross who helped me with the extension of loan of laptop. Not to forget, Steffi and Yee Hong for helping me source for replacement laptop.

Although I could not promise that I am able to get over it soon. But I will try to get over it and lead my usual life. Keeping my finger crossed that I am able to handle it and pass my UTs with at least C+.

170112 (Tuesday)
Today is last UT2 of this semester, which is Business Statistics, E46Q. I know I cannot pinned hope for an excellent results but I hope for not bad results.

Thank god, I just got my replacement laptop today. But in order for making it work, I need to send for laptop for configuration. By doing this, I need to have my charger.

The configuration was done before my UT, today consider a happy day for me. Meanwhile, I will be trying my best to rebuild my notes and get over the matter.

Thanks all who offer help.

270112 (Friday)
Since 2010, today will be most sad day for me. Not cause anything will be happening today. Just due to, today was my Grandmother, my mother's mother's death anniversary. I know it was usually counted using lunar calendar but I only wish to remember using normal calendar.

I also know, no matter how sad I am, she was already gone. I also know that she no longer need to lie on the bed not able to move and feed using tube. No longer need to feel the darkness as she had lost her sense of sight, taste and hearing.

In the time that she can no longer see, hear, taste and even speak, how is she going to keep on surviving. At times I really wish I can tell her, if she wish to leave us, she can. But when it was reality, I could not take it. I know my mother is even more devasted than me. I also know, I have to be strong so that my mother will be able to get over.

But waipo was the only grandparent I have in this world who watched me grow up. How am I to bear for her to leave us. All the more, she left us so sudden and without us by her bedside.

I can still remember that day when she was being sent for crementation, I could not bear to see the coffin being sent in. In fact, no one would be able to take it by watching your love one being place inside the coffin and being rowed in.

I do not know when I will not feel sad. I just know I am unable to feel happy whenever this day this date came.

That is part of the reason why I hate January and do not wish there is January on the calendar now.

310112 (Tuesday)
Today is my birthday. Today is also special day as we have special lesson for our FA. Two classes combined and having meeting 1 in a lecture hall whereby we did some activities to understand today's lesson.

We only allowed to go back to our respective class after lunch break. It was not a bad experience. Something out of the usual PBL. Can be interesting if you like to have some games involved and some competition on the spot.

Although it is my birthday, ever since my waipo passed away, I decided not to celebrate. Till when I decided to celebrate, I do not know.

At first Maslinda wanted to give me a mini celebration but was turned down by me. Even though there wasn't any celebration, friends around me will still send me greetings online and also on phone messenges.

The only person was kept in the dark was the facilitators. Anyway, since the day I decided not to have any celebration, I do not hope for any greetings to be received. Neither do I pin hope for any presents.

To me right now, today is just another day. Right now, it is a day for me to return my laptop. Once again, thanks to each and everyone who helped me so that I can tide over this crisis. Today, met him, he say Happy Birthday to me. The feeling was very awkward. I do not know why but it is really not good feeling either. Anyway, thanks. :D

Today is also my 'twin' sister Belinda's birthday. Coincidencely, we were in the same hospital, borned on the same month, date and year! Same ITE with same course and same part time job!

(This is how I got over January 2012. What a bad way to get over. I think whenever I felt that it will not be a good month, strangely, something will be happening. So does that mean, I should never celebrate my birthday ever again? Well, just let nature takes his course. Keep my finger crossed that things will get better soon. :P )