Dayz Without Voice

Day 1-17 November 2009
It all started with just a normal flu and throat infection. That lead to me losing my voice again. It became hoarse and soon I almost cannot speak. What is happening? Why again?

Even if I no voice, I still force myself to finish work today. How I wish the voice will suddenly come back. Terrible. Cannot live without you, my dear voice.

Day 2-18 November 2009
Thinking staying home and avoid speaking for a day will help. But sad to say, condition did not improved and neither did it detoriated. But I still cannot sing and barely able to speak.

My dear voice, when are you returning to me?

Day 3-19 November 2009
Another day staying home with less contact. Although my mum brought me out for breakfast and buy lunch for me. Although I ate the medicines as instructed.

Condition still did not improve. Why? When are you coming back to me, my dear voice?

Day 4-20 November 2009
No choice have to stay home today but was not able to speak normally still. Had to accompany my mum to visit my grandmother. How?

I have to help her translate if needed. But my voice. Help help help..... No voice came out still. My mum did not notice I lost my voice.

Day 5-21 November 2009
Thinking it was okay to attend vocal singing lesson. Hence did not postphone it. Thinking the assessment will be theory or breathing, hence thought its okay if my voice still remain hoarse and soft.

Even when I face CQ, I also cannot talk to him. So its better I hide from you all. But in the end, you all spotted me.

In the end, going for the vocal lesson was a wrong decision. My performance affected due to my lost voice. Still, I blame myself. Still I will not be spared from the blame. Still I have to punished myself. But whats done cannot be undone. Just hope tomorrow will be better.

Day 6-22 November 2009
Its already 6 days. My voice still was not back to me. What should I do? When will I get back my voice? I have an interview tomorrow. How am I suppose to face the interview with this hoarse voice? Help help help.... Still no sound from my mouth...

Seeing Aunty Lucy, wanted to call her Mummy Lucy. But no voice came out. I was so sad but have to smile at her.

Today have vocal assessment. Due to no voice. I only got 51/100. So disappointed. But what can I do? Cannot changed and cannot even amend. Just have to move on. Hopefully I can get back my voice soon... :*(

Hope it will get better tomorrow. Please please please, give me back my voice....