Last day of freedom... Last day of....

Its rainy Thursday. Mark the last day of my freedom to roam around Singapore aimlessly. What is my feeling now? It is mixed feelings.

One side of me is looking forward for the new job that is coming tomorrow. Another side of me is sad. Today not only is my last day of freedom. It is also last day Dr Balaji will be sleeping in Cheng San Community Club.

If the timing is not change, he will leave CC at 2.45pm. To be frank, I do not really know him. But since he was my neighbourhood's MP and I ever shook hand with him during one of the events. I felt I have the need to pay my last respect to him. I did it on Wednesday at 6pm plus.

His wife and children shook hand with me. The only word that can blunt out from my mouth is only Take Care. The feeling is funny. It is solemn. When I walked home, I suddenly remembered, I did not take one last look on Dr Balaji. My memory of him was very blurred. Of what I can recall, he was a friendly MP. Though he do not know me. Yet he show his friendliness and if not remembered wrongly, we did have a quick chat.

According to many who have worked with him closely described him as intelligent, hardworking, diligence. This all I believe. This make me recall 8 months 4 days ago, I lost my grandmother. She was also passed away due to sickness. But she was 91 when she departed.

Dr Balaji was only 55 when he left. Such a young age, I would say. But its true and its cruel reality. Remembered the first time I heard the news was Monday 12.30pm when I left Singapore Flyer and walking towards exit. I could not believe my ears. I heard Dr Balaji's name. To confirmed, I listen very carefully for the news on 1.30pm. Also through facebook and twitter and even news online that I confirmed he left us due to cancer.

It makes me stopped and think. Why is there this illness called cancer which took away a lot of great people instead of those who did many bad deeds and was out there enjoying? Why always was the very important founder and important person who passed away?

These days keep raining. Can I take it that the sky is crying for our lost? I just hope Dr Balaji can rest in peace and is having good time at heaven with no pain, no sorrow and no worries. I am sure he will be remembered and we will never forget what he did for us. Thanks for doing all the great things for us.

Also to my grandmother up the heaven, how have you been? I miss you very much. How long do I need to take to forget the sorrow? I do not know. Maybe I really need to write it out to lessen the pain and sadness.