Cant Tahan Anymore.... :(

Think some may have known and was shocked by my remarks in Facebook or in Friendster.

Yes, I am planning to move out if suitable tenant and venue. It was not a impulse decision but I had thought it through thrice.

Call me spoilt child of all I care. I am really determined to move out. After all, I will move out eventually.

Yes, I know 24 years old is a bit young to move out. Moving out will means all the things I have to do it ALL BY MYSELF. Including rental, electricity bills, food and etc.

I also aware that I will be suffering from tight financial but I really cannot tahan further.

Well, many was worried and wanted to know why I out of sudden came out this decision. It is rather shocking, I know. Ok. I shall explain myself below. No one will be able to change my decision as I am determined.

Everyone knows or maybe those who is close to me know that my father is not working due to his leg problem. Some even suggested that he should find something to do at home to pass time.

Everyday, what he does is EAT, SLEEP, WATCH TV. I don't blame him for that as he is very fat and his leg could no longer support him. So he will use chair to help him from place to place.

Given this situation, his brothers were all sympathatic towards him. Hence kinda spoilt him. He became self centered, noisy and unreasonable. I know it is not correct to say a person who raise me up for years. But if you really wish our father-daughter relationship not that worst, I suggest you should respect my move out decision.

No one would understand me and my decision unless you live with my father for a day or two.

If I continue to live in here further. Before my father go crazy, I will go crazy before him. I understand why his brothers are sort of spoiling him. Given that he is the second youngest among the four brothers, it is natural that elder brothers siding him and spoiling him.

They always say, pity him that he could not walk and had lesser chance to see outside world. But that does not give him reason for all those unreasonable remarks. It is affecting my life and everyday, I am not happy when at home.

Colleagues may be aware that, even if I am sick, I will never or at least do not wish to rest at home. Why? Not because I love to stay out. But when the home was not a suitable place for you to rest and get well, can I call it a cosy home?

Many classmates may find it strange that I do not like to stay home or go home early after school. Not because I love to stroll around the whole Singapore. Just because, when I reached home, I can get to hear something that was unplesant.

I do not know how I live through all these years. But what I can foresee is a happier me when I move out of here.

It does not mean severe ties between my parents but just that I really need this space to breathe.

I love my Mum and Dad. But what happened in here, no one can ever change. Including my decision. I had already made known to my Mum. She was not willing, i knew. But she knew very well that whenever I made decisions, rarely I will give up.

I can also foresee that my Dad would jump if he learnt this but I really cannot tahan anymore. For a better me. This is what I should and have to do. So please please please. If you are my friends, please respect my decision and do not try to persuade me to give it up.

I rather you help me source for any tenant in mind. Thanks thanks thanks.