Thoughts

Today I took my final theory test. But I did not make it. No matter how hard I tried, I just could not make it a pass this round. Why is that so?

What is happy for me then????

If you really want me to name, I will say, happy to be with the members and happy that they made me realised what is grown ups.

Though I got an answer which I do not hope to hear it, though he did not directly rejected me. But deep inside my heart, I knew, we aren't meant to be. I dot suit him at all.

What really only good news for me is, my idol appreciate my gift for his bday. Other than that, I would say, it is time for me to let go something which I should as it will never belongs to me.

I do not know if that 'he' will ever read this entry or people who knows who I refer to will tell him. I just want to say. Thanks for not directly hurting me. I know you are a great catch. I knew deep inside that I am not worthy for you. Maybe, as what most said to me, my real Prince did not came to me yet. But I think I should be realistic.

Long long time ago, as a fat lady, I harbour the thought of a handsome or cute prince will fancy me and start a relationship with me. Sad to say, fairy tales is fairy tales. It can never happened to me in real life.

I guess, it is time I have to force to let go. But if one day, miracle happened. I am not sure if I can take this news for my hurt and weak heart.

I do hope that one day he will come. I do hope it will be soon. But I doubt it will ever happened. Anyway, thanks for the help in my growing up process. I knew you would love to try, but I think we did not worked out well at all.

Do not worry, after this blog, I will learn to let go. May drunk wash away all my sorrow. Goodbye my admire guys. From now onwards, I will learn to let go and set you and myself free. Thanks for the indifinate answers and the praises. But to me, they are one of the scars.

I do know when I will let you go. But I pray my sorrow will end soon. Take care all and hope that HIM of mine will come and tell me what I think was all wrong, terribly wrong. :X