22 July 2008-Sad Sad Day

Today is a normal day to me actually. But I suddenly felt very stress. No matter how hard I tried, I just could not remember what was to be memorized. Am I exerting too much stress to myself?

Am I really a failure in study? Is this the furthest I can go? Time and again I promise myself not to give up. But I just can’t help feeling lost and do not know what should I do now.

Exam is nearing but I am still unable to remember what was to be inside my this stupid brain. Suddenly I really wonder, is my persistence under testing now?

Really envy those who are able to remember every single note into their head without difficulties. How can I become one of them?

I felt like crying and screaming but who can help me now? I know I have to be strong, I know I have to tell myself I can do it. Am I really able to make myself believe once again that I can create miracles?

To all my Sisters and Brothers out there, I am really sorry if you happened to read this and find me very pessimistic, I am sorry. I really lost all my confidence. What should I do?????